Tuesday, January 31, 2006
How am i...all i could say is i'm not ok...i'm still feeling that very feeling i'm feeling yesterday. i thought a few hrs slp would get me over this whole ordeal but its not as easy as it seems...trying to understand why she did tat...but i guess i didn't win her heart in the 1st place...why love her when i i can't make her love me back too...i dunno...sumtimes i dunno why she did wat she did...
i wanted to know why she say yes...i wish she could at least tell me sumthing...yet i hear nothing...i thought because its her first relationship so she's shy bout it...why does it have to be now when the problem is there in the 1st place...she could have told me earlier ...couples share their problems...they solve problems together...i guess she didn't really noe yet again that she suppose to...
i wish we can just solve this problem together without the awkard moment of avoiding each other till the day one of us think its time...why does she have to be the one solving the problem...i dunno wats my duty now...everything is so screwed up i dunno where to begin...
honestly i'm not gonna be ok for a while...i can see this coming...trying hard to snap out of it...all i'm doing now is wait...when is the wait gonna be over...i dunno...lets say i dun wanna be forgotten and avoided...its the last thing i wanna noe. hopefully she wun make things difficult for herself...i wish again that we can solve this problem together as a couple...its only right tat we do...
kelvin: anyway doctor...i'm having mosquito bites all over me...sleeping is such a torture...DUN TELL ME ITS DEADLY...AM I GONNA DIE...
Doctor: WAKAKAKKA!....i dun give a F*** if u gonna die or not...let me have a taste of ya...*doctor remove fake body suit*
kelvin: wat the hell...ur a damn bloody huge mosquito...didnt moma tell u not to eat that much...look at ya...look so much like a pig with huge elephants butt.
Doctor: OH NO PLS DUN USE TAT...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
kelvin: hah!...i knew this will werk damn gd...just take a look below!
my self obsession...the soap tat kills...it werk well with the toilet brush!
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5:03 PM
5:03 PM
Bad things always happens
Yea...the 1st bad thing happen today...i'm not feeling my best...totally lost my appetite...mum's nagging me but i dun even give a damn...seriously i'm not given a clear ans a clear explanation...i left here being clueless on why and what...i noe its saddening for her to make this decision but its saddening for me having to recieve this...noone wants this to happen...when she says she wants space i dunno wat she means...am i that much of a bother to her...
i never had any expectation for her...i suppose the pressure for her to love me is too much...she's just not ready...everytime when love matter strike her mind it sort of bothers her...tats the only few things that i thought might could be her problem. i guess i am a bother to her...maybe i dun deserve her cause instead of making her feel gd...i make her feel bad.
for a moment i dunno wat to do but wait...she says she wants space...i grant her space to breath to think...i've always done tat all along since the day i had my relationship with her...i told myself to be myself...the person she likes is the person she clicks...still we still click but wat happened? i dunno...
she's having her exams and her project is due soon...i once see valentine as a day to spent time with her, our very 1mth together which suddenly just disappeared right b4 my very eyes...guess its time i let matter rest till the day i get my ans...and i promise u silin tat it shall not change...i shall not live to regret this.
i'm back again...hrs b4 i was pndering alot...then finally i took a walk outside...i think of myself on why every relationship keep getting shorter right after another...why i can't seem to find the right partner...i wanted to at least make this one my final one...i gotta salvage this realtionship sumhow i told myself but wat can i do... i'm still sad...i'm feeling weak...my appetite is totally gone...have not eaten since morning...lets hope i dun faint...
well i told myself to not get werk up when i took my stroll...i'll just calm down and wait...she says she will tell me tonight...i will wait...hopefully she will tell...
*latest news*...i think i gonna leave her by herself to think...but i think its better for her to cope with her exams 1st...then come to our matter...tats just my concern now...get her stress over with 1st.
Oh yea bear...i still want the necklace and earings done...and silin no matter wat the outcome maybe...on valentines day u absolutely deserve this valentines day gift from me...time for me to hope for the best!
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2:29 AM
2:29 AM
Monday, January 30, 2006
Bad Omen very bad omen!
i just return from m'sia...and i've inform of silin of my return...after an hr or two she told me she got sumthing to tell me later in the nite...ok...heres where the scary part comes in...i have a very very bad omen during my 4 days in m'sia...bad dreams very bad dreams keep haunting me...now i've been told its a really bad thing and i'm damn kan chiong can...seriously i dunno how long can i take this anxiety...i might burst anytime...i hate bad stuff...especially unexpected bad news...LETS PRAY!
lets share sum opinion on why i like silin and how much i like her...well actually i'm not really in the mood cause her being pressure is equal to me being pressure...its like wat happens when two person clicks...i never expect anything from her than being her independent self and just be that way even in a relationship...she's adapting in a way to suit me and i'm doing it the same way to suit her...
i thought of myself of not being a gd bf cause sum people thinks i'm not showing enuff care and concern as a bf...but in tat case it sort of affected my mind abit...i'm doing in a way tat she is being herself and stuff...i dun want her to change to being those gerls u see getting emo and stuff...so far i'm adapting well to the way she is...
seriously speaking i dun wanna end it when we barely started...i'm giving myself time to understand her better and for feelings to slowly develope...and i hope she will too...time is the essence...its not within two wks that u see results...sometimes i just take the initiative to do things like calling her up and stuff cause i feel its my duty...
she need not worry over me getting insecure over her friends...cause i noe tat she loves making friends...tats her nature so i should let her...anyway it wun affect me much in any way unless those guys pose a deadly threat like killing her or stalking her or even wooing her but in anyway she will do the right thing.
it take two hands to clap..it take two person to make this relationship happen...i'm making my move and i hope silin would too...okay in a way i'm to blame cause i get worried over things b4 they even happen...tat is so unecessary...kelvin u did it this time...greatness!...lets just wait...
Some how i'm not giving this up like i did for the past few relationship i had...this is one i believe in very much...this is one i tell myself will definitely work...lets not give this up...i believe in me and i believe in that little feelings she have inside of her for me...silin u should not give up when it barely started.
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10:25 PM
10:25 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2006
BONJOUR!
today is sort of the last day i get to see her till i return on tues...urm...most probably be hanging out with her click...still i'm damn shy la...hah! hmmm...damn starving now and i'm rushing to get stuff for my visual studies...i dun think i need to use it anyway till nx wk..i think its more like a touring of the workshop...hmmm...not so sure myself.
thought of the day: i needa fill my tummy right now!
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8:29 PM
8:29 PM
I am Chocolate monster!
today i'm happy and again i'm abit concern over certain things...sometimes maybe i just think alittle too much which is kinda freaking me out...well i think i shall snap out of it...silin is reliable and i shall not do anything else to spoil that trust i have in her...ok i've snapped out of it...lets not get all freaky and breath in and breath out.
well i'm happy tat i see we progress one step closer to each other as a couple...sort of bonded well...i just needa be a better boyfriend...i feel tat i can be much better lo...haha...but one thing i do noe is tat i'm being me in front of her and not being another person whom i'm not...
well if u ask me how i much i love her...man! it can't be counted...but i admit tat i love her that damn much...among all the ex gfs i had b4...urm i sort of learnt to inject more love to her...she's one gerl who i may wanna spent my lifetime with...the future is unpredictable...but its up to me to fulfill this thought of mine...i noe i can be a very shy guy but it is not gonna stop me...
i just feel tat damn happy...because of her i've been smiling alot this days...my days are brighten up and i thank you my dear for making me feel this way...i'm one guy who truely express his feelings as and when he wishes...looking forward to valentines day...planning it now...yeap...its gonna be fun...yeap!
Thought of the day: Have Faith in Silin
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9:35 AM
9:35 AM
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Two more days to do wat i'm suppose to do...
hmmm...i'm now sitting in front of the com have char siew pao and it kinda suck, i mean the char siew pao of course...i can gladly says that i've been a happy man ever since...i wear a smile to school everyday. i dunno what really but i know tat it has sumthing to do with silin...haha...i'm not really thinking of her now and then but most of the time i am...but...i do pay attention in class and do my work so i'm not guilty of losing my focus.
Cny is just 3 days to do and m'sia trip is 2 days to go. i'm gonna miss her though but i'll definitly return. its a 4 days trip but i'm totally assured that she can do without me for 4 days i guess...maybe she can't but i'll still be back for her though...with lots of goodies too...urm mostly food...hopefully my aunt make that pineapple tart she promise she will.
oh yea...darren has been acting funny hough and yea he's damn cute la...the way he reads number cards is simply adorable...haha..in a while i'll be heading to school...well to all who's reading my blog...thank you very nice(i stole this phrase fromvictor) and pls continue to read and tag on my blog.
oh ya i forgotten i botght the nike elite...oh my goodness...its to die for la...cheap as hell too 75bucks...wooo...its a real bargain la...hahaha...next target is the topman jacket...its damn ice...yeayea!
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6:14 PM
6:14 PM
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Old School Sunday.
Yesterday nothing interesting happen....i just went off with victor tothe old woodlands center where wego get dinner and crap there...on the way there i hear sum crap stuff which i told to silin on the phone much later on...haha...crappy they r yet funny. Victor's crap still has its charm...haha!
had Hokkien mee at the coffeeshop....damn nice la...plus 2 glass on 80cents longan drink...woooo! cheap food totally rule my world...i love it. Silin was doing spring cleaning today...which sort of reminds me tat mine was done last mth and i dunno wat for...hah...painted new colours on the wall and stuff and major cleaning of everywhere.
well nothing much to post bout today though cause i just woke up not long ago...but i think i shall update ore later on in the day...gotta go now! Ciaos!
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5:01 PM
5:01 PM
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Not a gd sat! But i saw my dear ay last!
today's performance we practice like hell but result was disastrous so...gd job guys for giving in ur best...our best were just not there...shall do better nx time...and i believe so...TP was great la...Students there, compared to most poly...urm...lets say they're all unique in their own way!
KAnchiongness is all i feel today...when i went home...1stly i fetched silin to her stop then after tat, on my train trip home...my mind just went blank...i dunno how i just stared into empty space and not think of anything...maybe im just tired! then this guy started playing tong hwa on his HP...damn freaking loud!...everyone just stared! but he didn't even give a damn.
Yah on my way home...i fetched silin...i miss her damn much, saw her then i just wanna hug her but i'm sweaty so i just put my hand by her waist...smelly so can't do it...NOPE NOPE NOPE! two gerls...between esther and her...i picked her...she really have better qualities and i really can click with her
1st outing also the same...on the phone also can...i guess she feels it tat way too...can see tat...our cute funny msn days...i hella missing them where we use to say KABABBBOOOMM!....either one of us will say *land in hospital*...if not *faints*...haha its our damn funny and cute moments...i just luv them...!
i got so many craving now...sembawang black pepper beef horfun(5/5), tampines market wanton noodles(5/5), laopasa satay(5/5), m'sia satay chulut(5/5)...this are eum of the misses i encounter over the yrs...food man...its always been the food tat matters...silin dear i shall bring u to each one and try soon...eating is an option not to be miss...can always shed ur pounds off...i shall train after CNY...time to shape my body!
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10:45 AM
10:45 AM
Friday, January 20, 2006
ALOHA! CAPTAIN KELVIN SICK BOY NOMORE
man...today is quite a normal day...like any other fridays i have sch then after tat go down to studio...the only thing tats different..i head home b4 headng to studio...went to pick the showcase beat tat i mixed from my com...totally forgotten bout it...
I totally miss the madam every now and then...i guess she knows who since i've been saying "yes madam" to her quite often...she got her hp back for the moment dunno if its gonna stay long but lets hope so...she been busy too...chionging project and sch werk...tats the way...get it over with and start enjoying life...tats my gerl!
well...tmr i'll meet her most probably and i'm gonna be rehersing either at the sports hall if not the convention center...hah...we're prepared...may it be showcase or battle..we are totaly prepared. DIE BFC DIE!...tats all i can say if it comes to battle...shall not leave any trace of my doing behind...hah...total crap la...lets give it our best guys and impress crowd...
few more hrs b4 everything happens...shall make mental preparation...so for the time being i shall go to slp and wait till D-Day...sucess to all and missing u madam and loving u too my madam(SILIN)...haha!
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11:24 AM
11:24 AM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
AHoi! CAPTAIN KELVIN HERE IS A SICK BOY...darn weather!
ONe describtion for the day...i'm sick again...and the weather is a killer la...i'm very scared la...sick boy here might have prob rehersing tmr...damn weak can!
guess i'll go and rehers and after tat go home and slp if i feel damn damn sick. missing silin alot...ne mind...i just wanna hear her voice...then i can go to rest...hope she call hope she call...but again...i dunno if she will call...phone with her daddy...we'll just see la...if she dun call then ne mind...i totally understand...ok time to go rest...i need it.
Latest update...silin msg me and i'm damn happy la...she having a project to rush...hope she still can make it in time to finish it...lets hope her dad grant her permission to stay over her friends place...yea...latest temperature update...urm 37.2...not bad la...and my inflame throat is not tat sore anymore...gd...i hate that burning sensation...
Chinese new yr is only next wk...i wish i can have a day out wif her at least b4 i return to m'sia...once i return it'll be like a whole 4-5days...hopefully she can manage without me...the anticipation to wait for a love one is intense and i really hope that her dad return her hp...cause i dunno hw the hell im gonna contact her if she dun have it...especially after CNY when i return from m'sia...so lets hope for the best!
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5:25 AM
5:25 AM
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
KANCHIONG KANCHIONG!
Today i' damn kanchiong can...while playing X-Box i also kanchiong...got trash by akasha in fifa06...not gd...silin is in sch...haha...didn't fetch her even though i planned to cause she suddenly got a change of plans...the group she's in decide to leave for their friends bbq...ok...so there she goes...luccky her...bby leh...mouth watering now ya know!
Damn kan chiong la...i'm trying to keep my mind clear and wait...maybe she's busy and stuff...she's home...i know...she can take care of herself...i know...will wait for msg or call...if nothing happen i'll try calling at 12...see if she's alright...i have to care but can't worry every now and then...its irritating in a way...so lets wait
just finished werking on the song for TP jam and hop showcase...its not bad i say...just abit not that nice cause i needa cleanup the errors here and there....but overall...everythings fine la...tmr i shall test out...see if changes needed to be done or maybe if i should extend it alittle...i'm in charge...any screwups may cause me dearly.
Still waiting for her to msg...waiting and waiting and waiting...hope soon...can't keep my mind straight!
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7:24 AM
7:24 AM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Blur vision...blur feeling...oh its morning!
I just woke up not long again...mum made french toast...hmmm smelss gd...but mums out with darren...he's the small kid that my mum babysits...wash up and stufff.. then went to picked my clothes. nothing nice to wear so i just cover my eyes with my hands to pick...hmmm not a bad choice though...mini myni mini mo! i sort blurt that out...ooops!
yesterday was not a bad day...feeling was nice but still adapting my self cause i've not been in a relationship for very long time now...so u needa adapt and i'm not a pro...i'm so blur lor...but...still can manage...must be control ya see...! sent her to her nearest bus stop and i took the bus to sim lim and took 960 home...VIC ITS A LONG BUS TRIP HOME YA KNOW! 45MINS! and i have to walk still...not nice...but too happy to care bout all the probs...
Love is in the air i can say...and urm yea, air is stuck in my nose too...i got nose block...ok TATS LAME! HAH...vic u and hannah...big trouble...she gonna bug u for life...muahahahah...well not much to say cause my blur brain is still trying to absorb...feel like a sotong can...tentacles all sticking out like nobodies business....ok its another lame joke!
Anyways...gonna go sch soon...gotta knock myself out of the blur state.
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5:45 PM
5:45 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
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I JUST WOKE UP AND HER MSG JUST TOOK EFFECT IMMEDIATELY...ITS LIKE A MIRACLE SO MUCH LIKE MIRACLE...I GUESS TATS WHY I LIKE HER SO SO SO MUCH!
AND SHE SAY YES TO ME!
I"M SOSOSOSOSOSO BLESSED!
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4:51 PM
4:51 PM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
I'm ooOOOooover the MooOOOooon.....!
u know wat...i'm happy la...cause i finally told Silin...though its not in a very gd way but yea...i told her already...urm...i'm shy so not easy la! spent the whole with silin and jo and boy was i tired...have to walk and walk and walk...i'm not gonna say i enjoy walking to jo nx time...walking is not fun...gerls are better at it...cause they shop so walking is a must!
Didn't really bought much cause urm i dunno wat else to get...i wanted to get a khaki short but can't find it anywhere...saw a khaki jacket in topman...totally fell in love with it...it looks so cool...but the price...urm...even more cool la...$123 ok...jo was hogging onto my cam too...snap snap snap snap...hah...alot of pic sia...
Huit ting...why didn't u come...its ur loss u noe...cause after everything we went to winegarage and ate dinner...we have 3 dishes and add up to bout $106...so ex sia...vic fight 50% off for us...wat a great buddy he is...silin was laughing away at the way he act when he werk...hah...tats him...since sec sch until now...no change...
after dinner...we slack at wnegarage...snap snap snap again...hmmm...funny la...then bout 9.30...off we go...on the way...the very shy me have to confess to silin in a very shy way...man if i'm looking at the pic now...i wun be believe i acted like tat...i would told myself to act like a man...hah but i can't...too shy already! she reacted kinda positively...planning to give me an ans by tues...hmmm...no needa rush...take ur time i say!
Not a bad day...pretty fun and loads of funny stuff but i was damn sick in the morning...so i gotten desperate and started to find ways to make myself better...i took warm bath but gotten out of the bathroom freezing...so stated to put wet tower over my head...no help...took my temp...from38.3 drop to 37.6....hmmm not bad liao...so went out...on the way in the scourging sun i wore my shirt so tat i can sweat...then the result is i got so much better...but it got worse...all i did just help me temporarily...! but gd thing is Today when i woke up...i fine already...i guess its yesterday's outing with silin and jo tat makes me better...mostly its silin la!...hah!
silin and jo taken in winegarage...
I'm a sick sick sick boy...Jo man...u have to this pic !
Jo the coolest
silin the miss smiley face
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11:16 PM
11:16 PM
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Early morning Boredom.
its early in the morning at 11am...ok not so early but still my class starts at 2.30 so wth...actually i dun even noe wat to blog sia...maybe lets talk bout wat to do with hongbao after CNY...obviously when u look at me i would to get a hold of a ipod nano using that cash...man..but the ipod zen neon is cool too...but again...do i really need it...hmmm...not sure
that cash can be put to better use...can't anyhow splurge...maybe i'll save it up...its tempting but money cannot be use in sucha way where u get wat u desire...i believe inhaving enuff cash to make everyday of ur life wonderful and not stay broke as always....having enuff cash as in using it to satisfy my tummy...and stuff...hah!
Floorskillz drawing nearer each day...i'm really excited but yet scared...dunno leh...wth again...just practice today later on after class...i believe tat making my moves constant would be enuff...and yea...jam and hop...maybe i'll jam...battle mark to do alitle favour for huiting...its been along time since i battle sumone...mark be prepare orh!
nx wk is performance wk...i needa gear up...ah! EG t-shirts....man i gotta go check it out...! Procastinating like hell over the t-shirts...actually i've been trying to find time but can't...tmr will out with silin, jo and huiting...will be down at vic place for dinner...Jeah!...dnno wat to blog now...yea silin hows ur presentation going...update me can!
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6:59 PM
6:59 PM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Freezing Freezing day
this few had been super frezzing...i ws force to wear clothes tat were to kep my warm...yesterday did confernce with silin...man... i almost leak the secret out...but i dunno leh...got a feeling tat she know already just feel like telling her...but theres no need to rush...i "think"...DAMN! its raining...how ami suppose to go to sch at this weather...goodness!
back to topic...hmmm...i dun really hav a plan in mind...kelvin is too straight forward...anyway its aleady thurs so its pretty gd that i can keep such a thing from her...but my mind is itching...ok...i wun go bout questioning her...cause it will only shoot back at me and arouse suspicion but wth la...dun care liao...just let nature take its own cause.
yea...so urm...silin was freaking tired...like in yesterday...really pity her...shouldn't had call her yesterday...should had late her slp...she so poor thing...feeling guilty man...but wat to do la...over already. today she having another long day...i think let her have her rest after sch...dun go bout disturbing unless she feeling super energetic...i got homewerk to do so i think i can occupy myself...anyway homewerk i can do it pretty quick so wth.
think igonna take bus to the mrt station later...this kinda weather suck...early in the morning it have to be so freaking cold...god is unfair la....hah talking bout god reminds me of jo talking bout Ronghuis ex...haha! REMEMBER KELVIN DUN WORRY...UR NOT SUPPOSE TO WORRY TOO MUCH...think everything will go well...yeap...*take confidence boost drug*...woo tats gd...hah! OK!!! tats lame...haha...
alright guys...i'm off to sch...shall update more soon...yea...Huiting i already link u le and i changed jo's add to suit to every of u guys...its her new blog add !
SILIN I FORGOT TO FINISH UP UR PIC...SORRY...ABIT ABSENCE MINDED! SORRY!
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5:56 PM
5:56 PM
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
I can't spell wols correctly cause i'm slow!
Hah! i can't spell wols cause i'm very slow at realising things...why am i so slow to realise things happening around me...my life of searching for the right partner may come to an end soon if wat i'm gonna do this coming few days is a sucess tat is...i'm 50/50 confident cause i'm bad at such things....i got 5 ex gf but it doesn't make me any confident at all.
who say if u got many ex makes getting a gf any easy...no! its nvr easy...cause it takes lots of effort. its not easy to touch sumone...making tat sumone smile always...making that sumone miss u always and making that sumone like u. for all the above i'm bad at it cause i'm no sweet talker...sweet things dun come out of my mouths...i see sweet talkers as suckers...u sweet talk gerls then later u cheat them of their feelings...total crap la!
YEA! i felt a threat recently which prompted me to act quickly...causei thought of taking my time but now i realise i dun have time...oh goodness...I GOTTA ACT FAST...or i will miss it...esther is all but just a passing phase...its not her that i like after all...i can't feel a thing tats why ! told it to silin then she say no fun le...urm...i dunno bout tat...but i think its for a gd cause...esther is just a friend la!
But again...it might just be my imagination...this will be last attept...after which...urm...no more ok! Last chance at sumone and then if all fail then BBoy and sch all the way!
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2:31 AM
2:31 AM
Monday, January 09, 2006
I needa occupy myself today...my minds polluted!
man i needa occupy myself real badly today...my mind seem so polluted now with thoughts of me being super emo...cannot la...damn man...i'm trying hard to resist...sumtime i wonder why la...haiz...i think its the result from getting into a relationship...today i just wana break free...think i gonna be heading down to esplanade to break...wonder larry be going down.
Yesterday i chatted with jit, jo and silin. Jit went off early follow by jo then left me and silin...talk bout m'sia m'sia m'sia...hah./..funny though...i can't imagaine when i was young i hate m'sia to the core...i'm such a hater but now i'm loving that country...i suppose its due to the fact i got sick of singapore...i need to catch some fresh foreign air, gd thing i'll be returning to m'sia during CNY!
This sat i think i'll be expectng another of si;lin's friend to be going for our CNY shopping...urm i think her name is huiting...! yea...Jo and i will sort of meet 1st and roam around town...i'll be heading to queensway 1st to pass the t-shirt design 1st. Vic promise me a 1/2 price off dinner at winegarage...yea so we'll be heading there...yeap!
Floorskillz is around the corner...march 17th and 18th...biggest bboy com ever...so people pls come down to support...its gonna be held outside cine..not a bad place cause gonna expect a huge crowd...hyper they will be...i hoping a few people will turn up...yea! this tiem i aim at wining the semi...top 4 is wat i aim...jeah!
Now i dun feel so much emo le...blogging really help alot la...man...pouring out everything is gd...!
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8:51 PM
8:51 PM
This sat shall be called BEN and JERRY's shopping day!
HeyHo! man! this few days had been funtastic(i learn this word from mac's new ad)! Anyway in tat ad there is kelvin from definiton...hah...wata joke...damn funny la by the way he rap...many who noes him are all laughing away...but but but silin like it...she says he's cute and the ad is cool so i got no comments! yea...anyway our pre-show was a sucess...but it was kinda funny but we got it covered.
Sun was stay home sun...man...bored like Crap...everyone's out and i'm home rotting...hmmm i've done alot this wk...confessing stuff and hoping for a miracle but all this ain't enuff...hmmm..anyway esther is already an old news...i dun really wat to say though...nothing much la...i noe her well enuff to get a negative ans out of it. but i totally understand...she just needa change that mindset of hers!
been talking to silin alot this days...she ah...fun fun fun and more fun...man talk talk talk and more talk...we can't just seem to shut out trap...its like we hace endless crap to crap bout especially that story i told her when i was young and amazingly she's the only person to laugh at my dumb jokes...ok...i'm appreciated here...cool!
man...ben and jerry's have been up my mind this days...the ice cream is amazing...totaly cool...yea and i kinda miss haagen daz's tiramisu ice cream...its nice too...i've tried it one and it once 1/2 a yrs back...man! was it to die for...yea...today got alot of freaky thing la...junn, merry and i were having lunch during break time...met Joanne at the wanton mee stall and then they left...suddenly Joanne msg me saying asking wat we're doing after lunch.
i told her that we're heading back to library to do sum research...well she dun seem like those girl u say is guai u noe...seems havoc to me...and urm honestly nope i dun like havoc girls...yea...then she msg me again to see if i wanna join her for pool in pool junction urm...i rejected her offer...junn and merry were like teasing me la...oh gosh...wth! NO INTEREST AT ALL...i only got tat sumone in mind ok!
Though Joanne maybe cute and stuff but she's not my cup of tea...no way...hanging out with NAFA bengs wannabe...loseer like guys is not the kinda person i seek...i seek the cool and crappy people and urm shes not the kind i'm looking forward to. yeap...MERRY! can't stand u la...but thanks to merry i make another friend...urm wats her name...ohoh...urm she's called debby...cool la her!
anyway i think tats bout all...my adventures continue as of tmr...man i hear the mac's ad again gdness...!
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
I had found the true one!
Good news guys...i've got my problem solve and now i'm waiting to solve another...which i'm pretty confident at yet tough too cause this one is very tough...i'm serious...man! i just realise yesterday...during a conversation with victor and hakim during lunch and i think its a much wiser choice. Jo u got me this time...man i'm like so blur all this while...goodness me!
Anyway the pre-show tat we had yesterday went well...urm from the dv cam tat they recorded...superb! i can say those who are visiting Temasak poly this coming 21st of january can expect a great show from us! Yea...but yesterday i was like dog tired la...the rehersal was @#%$%!...serious!
hah...talk to silin again yesterday...she so poor thing la...no net and have to suffer the agony of being bored...hope she can get her net back online soon...but yesterday conference...urm i was like half awake...man! i say things tat just came across my mind which sumtimes is irrelevent to the topic...oh goodness...talking too much nonsense..hope silin slept yesterday...!
P.S to Jo...eh dun worry i shall tell that person soon....to silin u shall know the secret soon ,urm this saturday i suppose. See how long can i keep my mouth seal...hah! I'm really very excited bout everything but i can't be so hopeful and confident cause if i am then the result will be disastrous! jeah!
I CANNOT BELIEVE TAT DURING MY CHILDHOOD DAYS WHEN I WAS SUPER YOUNG I LIKE TO RIDE ON MY GRANNY'S DOG LIKE A HORSE...WTH...NOW I FEEL SO GUILTY CAUSE IT RAN AWAY...GOT A FEELING IT GOT SCARED OF ME DURING THAT TIME!
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Friday, January 06, 2006
School of hard Knocks!
man its 8.30in themorni ng and u guys must be wondering 1hy am i blogging 1st thing in the morning...i freaking miss so many of blogging so its time to update...from wed till...nothing much had happened...just urm plain old sch stuff...yea and lotsa things tats been going through my mind which requires me to choose...u or u?
yea...bout sch i'm still stuck with my damn classmates who are all so quiet...not just me the whole bunch of my mad ex classmates were all stuck with boring people in their class...super pityful la...i wish i had better way out for this...ok maybe i've made an extra friend or two but still had sum anti social peopl around...the girls are like always sticking to girls.
yea...talking my headaches...urm its very hard la...i'm likinh her more now and its like why now...i still got to learn bout her...and i mean alot...honestly we're stillnot comfy enuff yet and still she not yet given me the opportunity to hangout with her til nx wk...urm...lats see...she's a hard one...cause she always hangout with bodyguard kinda friend...super hard la! i can't communicate with them...theres a barrier u see...bengs not allow!
and the other headche is urm wah...i nvr expect it to be like this urm...shall not say...i think jo should noe la...tats why i have to choose now or regret later...but still urm things have not develope so fast so i still cna be flexible...jeah...
an..yesterdays practice was hardcore...sweating like a mad dog...wooo...learning the dance steps all at one shot...wah hard u noe but i dun mind cause to achieve wat i want urm i think its a small price to pay for tat...yea...soon to be leaving for temasak poly for my pre show so urm we'll see how and i'll update later bout it...yea!
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Best Wed i ever have yet boring...oh goodness!
Hah...i can't believe today i actually conference in the early morning of like 12 am to bout 2.30 am with conference bud of joanne and silin...non_stop action plus laughter...man...can't stand it...aiyo poor silin have to call from her hp...so poor thing...we shall definitely make it up to ya.
yea...haha...man al this conferencing is like hardcore la...anyway sch was kinda short today...i had lesson for thinking and its kinda lame for a course...are they gonna teach us how to think...! oh goodness...my teacher is none other than MICKEY...oh god...after 2mths i've to see him again...and lesson will be all so boring again! oh goodness...bore bore bore!
yea anyway...my side have become alittle closer thanks to having that lesson...ok its not so bad la...FOR TODAY tat is...well get to mingle with them and well they're all pretty cool. Yea...finished sch at bout 2.30 and i see no reason to stay in sch...urm nothing much la...its likeall my buds gone already...disappear liao...how to hang out nx time...see no point in it la! so i just went home and esther...urm she's having lesson...no point waiting...wanna wait but she will think otherwise...like having bad impressions and stuff like tat...so better not.
so i sort of went homer alone...reach home and everything is a bore...well joanne got online awhile but left then followed by silin...well she still online now...i just took a iq test and my score is a 110...urm not ba dla...i'm above average. great! i was tolded yesterday to build my confidence well i dunno...i'm like always taking a gamble...maybe i should build it up...i'm lacking of it...how am i gonna tell her how i feel one day...oh goodness...yea and I'M STILL STUCK BETWEEN TWO THINGS...HOW HOW HOW...i'm figuring out a solution...yea...hopefully it will be much help!
*NOTICE* new werk in gallery...interested peopl can check it out and drop sum comments on tagboard.
i can't belief really poselike tat in this dressing...dope!
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Schools goodie goodie!
yea...today is like super goodie goodie la...class was gd..can wake up super late then urm haha...many things la...silin gave me wakeup call...my alarm also damn irritating..went to sch and enter class...my class is 80% gerls...oh my goodness. Victor this sem for me seems like heaven but ok la...still not yet noe how each person behave...
Yea...any things la...in the middle of the lesson...joanne msg me...i was like aiyah...1st day teacher talking crap so just msg la...then esther turn...dun care la...just msg...i'm not the only guy who did tat...so did hafiz and another joanne of my class...yalah...haha...! Not bad la...back to sch feel so gd but soon la...i will feel damn sian...u shall see!
ya...my class guys wahlao...half of them are besngs...theres like 6-7 guys in total...wah sad la...again its a regret...but wat to do...just chiong through this sem to get gd result...yea...one lesson i had a faggot teacher...oh goodness his lesson is whack...whack u hear me...ITS STAIRCASE LA NOT STAIRCA...oh goodness...i wa slaughing like hell...faggot whose english is whack!
yea after my wrk i was wandering the sch...sort of got a feeling that esther was around so i just walk around and see and yup i saw her...sitting sumwhere alone...so poor thing so i go entertain her...haha...well tats my intention all along...not gonna leave her just like tat...
ok la
a few mins later my lesson end...no more faggot lesson and i sort of lure esther to go shop for shirt wiyth me adn she did...boy was i happy...haha...hmmm...i got wat i want and sort of went home with her...i got all the time in the world so i did...well another purpose is to let her get comfy along the way...and guess wat!
i saw my fav sec sch teacher...esther was feeling wierd but haha she join in the chat alittle...haha...catch up alot and i found out the sch i use to study suck even more now...oh goodness...yea...esther drop off at CCK and i sort of lasted till admiralty...haha...got home check com and silin sent me testi...haha...i got it silin and yea sch was superb...i change my nick too...tats ur ans...! witing for ya to recieve it...haha
I'M STUCK IN A SITUATION NOW...OH GOODNESS...I'M NOW IN THE MIDDLE OF TWO THINGS...HOW HOW HOW...WAHLAO!
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
Woooo...one more day till sch starts...the excitment is killing me!
Wooo....one more day and sch gonna start...and its just tmr...having lessons at bout 5.30...yea! but end at bout 5.30...damn thats the downside of it...ROARRRRRRRR! Holidays coming to a end...at a blink of an eye 2006 has set foot already and i got lotsa things to realise...in my career as a BBoy, a student, son and a citizen...lotsa things to do and i hope i can accmplish greatness within this 1 yr.
lets talk bout the past two days where i've been home...urm...on new yrs day...urm not a gd day...everyone's out...mom and dad too...i chose to stay home cause of my damn aching leg...a minor muscle tear. but i think it will heal soon...i got a pre-show for tp and i can't spoil it man...perfection. yea...it hurts bloody alot especially on my tigh...sumone pls help me massage my leg.
Urm on new yrs day i ordered a regu;ar pizza for dinner and feast...wooo...damn filling...ate the whole pizza up...yea...hawaiian rocks! then sort of chill out at home watching DVDS and stuff...hah! ok la...not a bad new yr...theres much worst cases than me so i should not complain tat much...zip up!
urm on that nite i couldn't believe i conference and conference with joanne and silin for 2 days...wah...so much to crap bout...the funny one was Joanne and silin was funny too...loads of joke and craps. we gonna go shop nx sat for new yrs stuff...iw anna get my nike cortez...yea...slurps...gonna bargain big time. slash slash till we drop.
AH! silin..."banglah joke"...hah...not gonna mention it up...cause racist la...msn msn...when u online...haha...ugly mix...oh goodness...can't take it la...compliments to joanne for saying bout she and ang mor will havea gd looking mix kid...wahhaha...make me think of this kinda joke and silin can laugh so much...oh goodness...tummy ache la!
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