StlaxatlveZ/kel [Revamp Versatility]

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Me striking up a pose
tell me that i'm sexy!

LOL

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3:42 AM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

something just came across my mind, it was actually this past i had in my sec sch. those days definitely was one to remember. i've made several gd friends frm which victor and mudface were the two whom i still talk to even now. i was once called chew my balls. lol, i noes those reading now will have "that kinda face" chew my balls is no joke ok, tat nick brought me far within my sec sch. earlier in the morning at around 2 plus, went to met the man vic and sort of chilled till 6 where we had prata for breakfast and then i was homeward bound for my morning slp. catch up on life and stuff yea. that black guy been doing gd...lol

well not much to blog about now, just slacking away again...grrrr!

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7:22 AM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Blogging almost every nite is more or less an obligation. Anyway I just ate some friend noodles, hot as hel. Upper lips are burning and I can hardly take it. I think my stomach is trying hard now. Too much chilly I guess. I spent another day at home again. I wonder how long can such life last.

oh yea yesterday was Ben's b'day, wished him already.

so here I am talking to huiting moments ago about Melanie. I went crazy over her totally. Was laughing at myself . Well she's the prettiest girl I ever met in my entire 19 yrs. Don't say I got no taste in her but she is wad I call the real deal. No camera tricks, no photoshop, nomake-up, no Paris Hilton wannabe, no nuts. 100percent girl+lady. LOL, great combination dun u think.

tummy's feeling kinda wired, I think gas are building up inside.

seen several blogs, some of friends, some of strangers, pretty gals, gay, cool. I Dunne. So the new generation of youngsters life are practically stuck on the computer. Like wise I am when I am so hella bored. I find no meaning in sticking on the com for so long when it brought to me nothing. I gained nothing out of it. Our lives are all stuck on friendster, blogs, myspace and recently Youtube. geez. upon realisation, i dun really care if I'm an addict.

all this makes me wonder tat maybe its time I get myself a part-time job. I can't imagine if this year, we really make it to Thailand for BOTY SEA and then to BOTY international in Germany. Imagine the money needed even though we get coporate sponsorship. So I need a part time job desperately now.

I suppose I'm done right now. And my HP. Darn it. Its still down...Oh god. Save me, a phone I can't live without.

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10:42 AM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Today was another day where i'm stuck at home. i dun really wanna say stuck. i'm just being plain lazy. Couch Potato Kelvin, tats wat i call myself this days. gd to see Tinga has gotten back to her usual self. so it kinda lighten my mood alittle. Comeon when ur BBF is A-OK how can u not feel gd. yayness! this days i gotta the urge to go catch a movie and then proceed to just chil out at some cafe like starbucks and chitchat till the wee hrs. i miss this kinda lifestyle. and i did tat b4, wif this gerl call sarah. Tat was ages ago. i hope tmr will be a turning point on how i should lead my life. i gotta turn the tides. its the only way where life is ever so meaningful to me.

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11:33 AM

Monday, May 22, 2006

Its monday again. and i'm again home. Ask me why and all i can say tat i got myself to accompany. well since i got fedup at looking for a job this holidays, i take it as a long deserve break. yea, i took time off to go through things in my mind, do things on my own. i didn't realise reality to be so harsh. Anyway i'm already 20, and i should take everything in my strive and just be contend with it. everything around me seem to be in a total mess and it does affect me alittle.

lol i know this few days my post have gotten alittle emo. i can't help it though. i got noone by my side whom i can show off about, i got no idea whats going on to the people around me. i admit that its a sign of loneliness for me. sometimes i got myself to blame for all this. but this is wat i have to adapt, who noes wat will happen in the future. your friends might drift away. Blame noone for it but its always a possibility.

Time to move on in whatever i do, accomplish wat i have not. Find a life partner in due time and lead life with no regrets.

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12:08 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Love works in mysterious ways. they are unpredictable and sometimes it drive people crazy.apparently its happening around me and not at me. i'm filled with envy. well, its just seeing it and dreaming about it thats nice. But when u come across it and experienced it, u'll noe that somethings is not wat it seems and the probability of it happening is high. this is just technically my way of explanation. its 1.23am late at nite and i think my mind is filled with trash so i'm just pouring it all out. alright gd nite world, another boring and lonely day is up once again....

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10:11 AM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

its 4am in the morning...i can't slp. i'm so bothered by the fact that i'm down and out and i have inflict serious damage on Tinga. i didn't meant to tell her such nasty things. i wonder why i bother telling her when i noe its not gonna help in anyway. all this guilt is killing me, and i can feel my eyes bags are getting worst...geez...!wat a day when its all high in the day, it all ended with a new low with so much thing happening, my HP is down and i'm down, ting is down, and now i can't slp. its just a ted unfair, i just feel like "commiting suicide"

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12:59 PM

I SHOULD JUST SHUTUP

Gd and bad things happen today. we'll start with the gd things. was out practicing for Boty wif EG. i feel somewhat lucky to have friends like them. somehow i can feel the bond. i'm just proud of this, for one dream, everyone's spirit sore to a new height. LETS WORK TOWARDS SUCCESS MY FRIENDS.

time for the bad part. Many people i noe are not being their best this recently, it really bring my spirit to a new low. Yes, i need someone to share part of me. why wun she appear...why why why! tats wat i asked myself, i blame myself for holding back. but then again i pick myself up, for the people i always gave my support to. but then sometimes i feel like i just got thrown back down, the things i said, the advice i gave noone ever listens, its not once but over along period of times.

sometimes i should just not poke my nose into sumones business, should just shutup for once. just stop being such a nuisance...stop makeing things worst, cause noone ever bothers at all. i more than just a mere figure in this world, i dun mean anything to anyone now, i guess its best i should just shut up for this once. i noe this is a sad post but i just can't be bothered anymore...

i just wanna embrace sumone now, sumone i wun hold back.

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8:48 AM

Friday, May 19, 2006

GEEZ! its raining right at my area and i can't get to studio in this wheather. i suppose i gotta wait then. looking at the people around me falling or being wif love, sometimes i feel the lack of love by a third party. *ignore the larry love part*, he's just joking. i suppose its moments like this that u wanna embrace someone. lol...i think i'm still PMS-ing...damn it!

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12:56 AM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

No coffee No workee

woke up in the morning with a tummy upset. the baby took a long time to be called to have a bath. so basically not until the baby bathe i have to tolerate the constant stomach aches. for shouting out loud my face turning green. then it took like 1/2 hr b4 my mum manage to get the baby to bathe. by then i was seating by the sofa paralysed frm downwards.

ok shall skip the details of my toilet advanture. its not much of an adventure but yea...aches no more but i'm still feeling green. appetitie for breakfast ain't gd. GEEZ! today shall be meeting jill for a chillout. 9pm onwards that is so wat was i suppose to do b4 9...will be at bishan studios...lol

its been quite some time since i met up with those girls, kinda miss them...lol! so we got a bout 1mth down till ting's b'day, her t-shirt design is set so wats missing...i dunno bout it but the b'day girl herself have plans in mind i suppose.

DAMN IT!!! i crave for hawaiian pan pizza now...ARGHHHHHHH! gotta get one!i.......gotta........get........ONEEEEEEE

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7:51 PM

PMS-ing!

ever heard a guy PMS-ing. lol...i belong to one of those category. Not literally though. dunno watsup with me today but its just tat i'm creating trouble of my own. pretty dumb but when so many bloody thoughts run through your mind, when ur totally at a lost...this is wat u experience.

this days i've been waking up like 3pm almost everyday, but today can be excused. i watched the champions league fials in the morning so i can't help it though. BARCELONA WON...yay! i took a breather after Belleti scored the second goal...PHEW! ok, back to where i stopped, i better have abetter time managements, the day where i use to slp like 17hrs are long gone, well those days are nice because i had someone to share the kinda exp with b4. well, that have to go...i suppose many of u do agree with me huh.

life of a single male is pretty much boring though. u constantly seek a purpose in life. how i wish i lead a life of a sucessful single male. won't tat be quite a sight. LOL, i can imagine tat now...i know it won't be just a dream, its wat i see myself in a few years time, i know within this few yrs tat my struggles will pay off...i believe it will!

and i believe so.

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5:08 AM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

The world have gone wrong!

tell me if this is true, has the world gone wrong? i got no idea, Tinga is love sick, i being so ever carefree now that nothings bother me a single, i can't get inspired when breaking. i dunno which of these few have topped my list but i sure know tat everything seems so wrong this days. it maybe interesting to see that my life is in sucha chaotic moment for the time being. of course noone wanna live in a world where ur life is all but monotanous.

well i hope Tinga's problems will be over with soon, i hope i'll get back all the inspiration i need to prepare for BOTY and me being so ever carefree have to be limit as it causes lotsa problem in my life so i gotta do alittle fixing here and there.

been through huitings blog, silin sure looks gorgeous in those pics...lol~! haha wat am i thinking, dun get me wrong though. its just temproray thoughts of her. well i'm not expecting any high hopes of having he abck or something like tat, in fact i've given up hope already. well i dunno why but it seems impossoble if u ask me, she's better off being her carefree self or with a better guy...*winks*...LOL!

i speak the truth for wat i say on the above, well people ask me why i dun ask for a patch...well i dun think it'll make any diff, when i break up with someone i make a bad example of a bf so somethings i gotta give it a thought, reflect on wat went wrong and hope when i hit another relationship that i dun make the same mistake again...

well well buddy jill has been a great bud, did quite alot for me and all i can offer is my presence when she need sumone to talk to in times of need. haha thks jill, seeya this friday and of course 30th may in MOS, haha we shall catchup.

i dun ask for much this days, all i seek is friends when i need them the most. everything else i leave it to god's hands, he shall decide my fate while i just sit back and relax for time being. LOL!

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11:17 AM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Questions Questions

yesterday i got myself tons of random thoughts. all this thoughts lead to questions which is so hard to find any answer.

i wonder whats my real purpose in life?
my parents gave birth to me to find company when they're young to find out that raising a kid to what i am now is not as easy as it sounds.

so my purpose in the 1st place when being born to this world serve as an amusement to my parents, someone whom they can showoff to, someone they can be proud of and someone they can have fun with.

so wats my purpose in life is now?
its so hard to findout my real purpose in life. so scientifically your purpose in life is destine by your genes. well i got this frm the tele.

somethings are hard to tell, i guess i shall be wondering for life on it. but in mean time i just lead life witout my real urpose and when i noe wats my purpose in life then i shall seek for it...

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9:17 PM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

My salvation, and I LOVE MY MUM!

today marks the day where i'm gonna salvage myself frm all the shit i've been through. i have not been myself in watever i do. nothing gd had happened this wk and i seriously detest it alot! my only solution is to pull pull myself together and start afresh.

well i hope i don't disappoint myself ever again, i shall be improving myself in every aspect like bboy wise, student wise, friend wise and family wise. in due time i hope i can deliever wat i said, basically out of all i've said, only 50% was done so i hope this time it will be 100% so tat i can be really proud of it.

so who wanna join KEL's salvation army to carry out his mission of supporting me me me. LOL!

well tmr's mamas day and i gotta wake up early and start with the chores. mum, u shall take ur well deserve rest and leave the chores to your son. so i got sweeping & mopping of the house floors and ironing the clothes which i totally suck at, i think theres too many to list. well just do it till the day pass by i guess...but i willing do it...haha...cause i love my mum tat damn much. she's been behind me in whatever i do...time i show gratitude.

tmr's gona be one fine day, a gd start to my slavation and hopefully a day where i can make my mum real happy...gd nite people and pls say a thank you to ur mum's at least...ur brought to this world by here and at least show some gratitude!

MUM I LOVE U!

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11:20 AM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Thursday!

Update on today. Downloaded afew song mixing software and tried out...my comments are, all are pretty fine. Its all bout knowing to use it right.after so long i'm still trying to get the song right...Sigh*

The Urge to win BOTY is so strong thats its hard to describe in words. anyway, another pesky bug just got on my nerve but its damn irritating...STUPID MOSQUITOE!! Plus it have to irritate me while i was having my darn flu....i seriously got damn piss!

wats install for tmr is yet to be known. i'll see wat kinda mood i'm in and whether my body wanna do anything like practice. Lol we'll see...overall its pretty much a lazy day for me...kelvin pls get ur ass off the chair and stop acting like homer simpsons....!

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9:20 AM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Monday blues??? wat about tuesday slacks!

Well wat i did today...slack and nothing more and woops...i see something just flew in. woah! new breed of beetle. i just killed it! NO MERCY MAN! bugs totally freak me out can. oh yea...

Lu, yea i understand how u feel when silin knocked into u and all the drama that happen...sorry for laughing, can't help it.

tmr i'll get my hair trimmed...think more on the back...everywhere else is ok.

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11:09 AM

Monday, May 08, 2006

Wack and more wack stuff!

yesterday went down to esplanade for practice. 5pm i was down, and not a single soul. ok maybe i saw a few dancers slacking around and tats about it. got myself this brownie frm raffles city and just started to take a bite and check out vids on my phone. 1hr pass and i seriously got hella bored. Monster was there so i just got in gear and break away.

gregg droped by but he was meeting his dad...Daddies boy! LOL! well two newbies came along. this guy starting to "rock the beat". well not the best but very aggresive as if he wanted to take me on...dunno why though but i just do my usuals, tops, basics and all and thats about it till bert and alex came then they left for dinner and aaron and adam came shortly. ciao to subway to eat.

back frm sub, i got down and just let my body do the job. got a new set. at leqast i didn't go home empty handed. well breaking is a gd way to relief stress...i so agree wif tat...bboys dude.

anyway recently the crew CDS came up wif this blog which i find very ridiculous...

heres the link: http://bboynorth.blogspot.com/

talki to my homie Remy frm japan/seattle. sounds like his crew is doing fine in japan. strong basics and all. hella dope! u guys should drop by SG again...

i noe that today i blog bout bboying alot but its just my 1st love now and CLEMENT FUCK U, I:M NOT A GAY...kkk the F U part i was just kidding!

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9:41 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Bad Sundays~!

Today I’m not feeling my best! I feel so lifeless...talk to tinga abit...yea! And then basically just rot my life away. Then this bad migraine bugged me form late noon till now...2am at night. I don’t know wats the cause of this migraines. loads of things bothering me. I wish i could share it with my friends but i don’t know WATS the problems. I think it’s all this over thingy which i almost got into recently...it’s very impulsive but arh! Bad move!

WATS wif all this...why am i getting myself such problems. Love has become so meaningless to me because i started to feel suffocated when getting into one. Twice it had happen. One was about 2mths back and then now. I really should just get myself out of all this problems once and for all b4 i go crazy. This same feeling was like 2yrs back when Jessie broke up wif me...where thereafter i just felt so darn numb...i can't love anyone wholeheartedly.

It really sucks.

Truthfully another small prob is that i still miss her but things are unlike b4...so bothering it makes no diff...I just quit it!

Argh! I think I’ll just slp my problems away. Tmr will be a better day. Yes it will be!

I should just stop being impulsive!

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11:03 AM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

WAT kinda GERL???

Your type is the cover girl

She's a bit preppy, a bit glam — the cover girl is your ideal girl. She's perfectly coiffed and dressed, and never has a bad word to say about anyone (at least, not to their face). She can be prim and proper, but she's also quick to lift a pint and a burger at picnics. She has a somewhat unattainable quality, and that makes you want her even more. She's almost too perfect to touch, but the extra challenge makes the payoff even sweeter. Her fun-loving personality and traditional values make you proud to have her on your arm. Standing by your side for barbeques in the garden, life with this lady will be a classic suburban family dream.

well its sounds pretty true that i'm in for that kinda girl which is describe right at the above...yah its very demanding, I NOE! WHO CARES! cause i dun see many of this type of girls around anymore...! unless one pop up right infront of me then i shall consider. OK not consider but i'll immediately say yes. ut such things are just fantasy...WTH!!!!!!!!!

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9:44 AM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

WORD UP for the sick boy!

so today i spend the whole day at home...shag out, sick and just feeling damn lazy to even speak a single word. i just got this feeling that i just wanna be alone...u can say i live in my own world...ok...not really still there are friends like tinga and gang, victor and Enemyground...well the others i'm not to sure bout it. my clique of so call friends. i dunno, think i can't fit in due to my rebellious and selfish nature and my tendecy of speaking freely.

well things come and go, anyway the semester ended and a new one is about to begin. whos my new classmate? i got no idea. seen the whole of VC over 1 yr, Lotsa diff people around. the gd ones are considered the minority. hmmm..i dunno how to further explain it but people i met in my previous class like mich and gang and people like ana are nice people to hang out wif...dun need a grp in sch...just be an individual. My selfishness will be disregard, I'll be having less problems if i do the right things, No peer pressure and i need not see the faces of people who dun like I...but still I'll have friends.

well NAFA is a competitve sch. see lots of threats around and i realise that i can't disregard such people. well sounds like i might do sum underhanded tricks but NAH! This term i totally forgotten the goals i set in sch, time to achieve it...hopefully being an individual will help. Need no more close friends ...i got my fair share over the yrs thks to gods credit...even though i'm not a religious guy.

affairs of the heart is still quite a prob for me...i dunno...use to envy at seeing couples but now i just got numb. in my mind its bboying, sch and slogging away. ok still friends like tinga still matters to me...

Battle of the Year singapore...JUNE 16th & 17th. haha its drawing closer...i'm damn anxious. hopefully my crew can once again pull out something magical. Lets do this one more time....FOR ENEMYGROUND, FOR BATTLE OF THE YEAR! its always gd to motivate myself in this ways!

WEEEEEEEEEEE~!!!

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10:17 AM