Friday, September 30, 2005
Yesterday after lesson...i went o meet sarah...but b4 meeting Sarah...i went to see Fizah b4 attending photography lesson...i passs her her memory card...so happy to see her...she's in adress...she's happy...yea. too bad i can't spent my time with her yesterday. urm...went to bugis mrt to meet sarah...tat cute girl...haha...anyway, sarah is this cute friend of mine from la salle sia. she's pretty gd in animation...we went to this cafe and hang out...nice cafe and nice enviroment...but its pretty cold...gd thing i brought my jacket...tyhen she took out her lappy and show me some of her...haha...cool. She's also a tim burton fan...love tim burton so much tat she emulate his style...very ambitious! haha...we sort of chit chated, slag...she taught me alittle thing or two...watch some anime...basically seat at the cafe till its time for it to close...then we move out to seiyu...she got herself thuis tyling wax for her...cause she went to perm it on thurs...hmmm...after tat...we went off to national library...from there we did our individual homework...she did her story board thingy for her animation lesson and i did my figure drawing homework. urm...then bout 9...the library close..so we move out like early and went to eat. GUESS wat we ate for dinner..."NASI AYAM" wooooo!....went there to eat...haha...the weird thing is tat we can talk non-stop all the way...wonder why..is it because tat magic come out from my mouth and make people wanna talk to me...nah...cannot be la! Nasi Ayam was nice and i'm glad Sarah like it...then afetr tat we just talk and talk...when its bout 9plus...we move out...actually wanna go kinokunya but the top level of bugis juntion was close so...haiz...no where to go...and also0 the bad thing is tat...haha..we keep knocking into this Escada guy...who keeps on bugging us to try out their product. anywya...we sort of avoided him and head out to the mrt station...time to go home...anyway...really enjoy my time with her...time really pass so fast. Haiz!...we took the train...damn pack...she got off at douby ghaut mrt and i bid her gd bye...it was a great day...haha...really enjoy my time...like Fizah, she also a really a gd friend of mine. hmmm...wat will happen after tat i dun really know, i guess i'll let fate decide...i just want someone whos i'm comfortable with...hopefully she will come to me real soon...
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10:33 PM
10:33 PM
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Today...Happy Happy!
today was pretty much a happy day for me...urm..firstly, no lesson. secondly...HAHA...seminar start at 2 and then lastly...Spent some time with Fizah. Oh no lastly is i retrieve back the memory card we left behind at the printing shop...wah wat a relief. woke up around 9plus...haha...frsh...washup...ate breakfast and went to sch...was there to do homework...saw fizah...she left her mp3 for chanrging and then went to have lunch...tat time i was pretty full so didn't follow. after awhile she return...shift table and went to join the other guys. during tat time...urm...can't draw no more...hafiz came and ting* ting* ting*..haha...watch funny videos. everyone was laughing including fizah...seeing her fizah being tat happy really purks me up. after tat...hafiz let te gals watch unug violet...i wonder if i spell it right...they ere so engross...honestly me too...then times up...time to head for the lecture room for the seminar...starting was BORING....until the part where they talk bout VC and MM...wah! so hard to choose...wat to do....haiz...i think VC 1st choice, follow up by MM...okay set. After the seminar...haha both fizah and me went to the printing shop to print some photos...urm b4 printing we were like tickling each other...was...i didn't know i was so weak...hahaha...got tickle so much...haha...it was fun though...but this cisco guard in front ah...really took along time...like tortoise sia...finally our turn...printed some pics then we went off...FOR SOME ICE CREAM...wagagaga! nice...sweet...long time sonce i tasted ice cream, Nice! After tat...hahah...old chang kee...fooo!...crab sticks and sotong balls...fantastic...but we got spied...by my friends...Nani and gang...ah!....okay...finish our food we took the train with them...then nani and pradeep alight...i went back with fizah, clement and michelle...then when about to reach raffles...fizah found out that she left the memory card there...i went off to get it...when reached bugis...i ran all the way to the shop...tired sia...but for fizah...i'm willing to do it...reached the shop..i checked the shop...ah!...nothing there. then i went in to ask the store keeper...whew! found it...then i went off...msg fizah regarding the memory card and i went back home smiling...reach home...took a bath and went online...sian.ah///msg fizah every now and then....then she got online...talk and talk...then i guess she got disconnected bah...i guess she's also pretty shag ao maybe she wanna have a rest...hmmm...left her to slp and i was left alone...anyway...i have my share of fun and quality time wif..dunno wat to do without her...love her as always...i dun wanna die too early...can't bear to leave her alone...till death do us part...tats the phrase...hehe!
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7:45 AM
7:45 AM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Today a day of boredom...sian!
Today was pretty bored...especially when i was having P.O.D. Haiz...i miss having someone by my side...haiz...i wonder when will that happen again...so far i just have to wait...wonder if i have to wait till i'm damn old then get attach mah? Haha...some of people i like, attach already...like Melanie...haiz...no need to say. Maybe i'll just wait...who knows...it might even be Fizah...okey okey...i just wish its possible...i still got alot of love inside my heart to distribute...honestly i'm also a blur king...i only know tat Fizah is the only one who really fell in love with me...other then her, i know of nobody else liao...how to see...when someone have a crush on u, they dun usually show it in front of me...either they run away...if not just stare blankly but the problem is i dun even know if people are staring blankly at me..maybe peole just feel that Fizah and i are still attach...i guess...well though we're apart...but our hearts are still one...so the love is still there...okey back to to where i stop...urm...yea...after P.O.D, went to national library to borrow 2 cipies of comic bks...haha...cool...yea...needa use in figure drawing. Okey...then rush back to class..sat down and paid attebtion to lesson..hah...draw comic characters...wat a challenge, ok...i accept. well! it went well...the thing is kinda sian also...because i missing the other half of me...really...haiz... after figure darwing...went to makan...makan already then go sch library...barely stick there 4 an hour then i left for national library...then after tat...went home...haiz...so alone so so alone...how i yearn for one day for me to be attach again...Sigh...Well still! i will always be in love with the Fizah...hehe
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5:11 AM
5:11 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Today...urm...Delifrance was kinda sweet
today...it was lesson as usual, Changwei, AH! the guy who make me waste so much cash on his aquafine shitty poster colour...i'm gonna do my best work to vent my anger...haha...u watch out Changwei. So far for basic drawing...as usual...walking in and out of classrooms...slack...work...slack at coffeeshop...work...slack...wat a routine...then after basic drawing i went to...library...watch funny video tat hafiz show us on his lappy...laugh till i drop u can say...urm...also...after all tat...went down to coffee shop again for fish & chips...feeling sia, also power! After tat...i went back to library and work of figure homework...didn;t slept the previous nite...cannot slp at all...so it sort of affect my ime in the library...my eyes were like opening and closing...ah! went to the toilet to keep myself fresh and went back to work. Dunno why also...none of my sketch looks gd too...WTH...maybe not in the mood i guess...then Fizah came in after her printmaking...to avoid alfam, we pick another desk and do our work. not long..my tummy felt terrible...okey, Toilet break...i excuse myself and took my stuff to the toilet...wow...it was heaven...ok...this part no need for explaination. After everything....we make our way down to the cofeeshop...but, fizah can't get wat she want so we make our way to delifrance in bugis juntion..wat i order was too sweet...OMG...my tongue cant take it....not gonna have tat crepe thingy no more...spoil my taste buds...but fizah was really enjoying her food...she really saviour it...the time at delifrance was real fun...hahaha! After tat we make our way home...on the train we just talk and talk...till i reach jurong east station and i drop off...needa go to the wdl regional library. when i reach there..hahhaa...no comic...wahahhaa....wat the. so wat to do...i just got the ultimates series from popular and went back home...all was normal at home...washup...eat and online. but its pretty hot sia today...nvrmind! i hotguy mah doesn't matter. yah...Fizah enjoy ur time wif mus tmr...i know u will...as for faiz...i got no worries...u gave me an assurance...it makes me feel gd...thks....i'll always love u...!
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9:39 AM
9:39 AM
Monday, September 26, 2005
I get too emotional sometimes...tats my weakness
i dunno why but for this mth i've been feeling the ups and downs...till now i can't slp because i'm still kinda depress..i hope i'll be ok by tmr...i dun want Fizah to see me like tat...i want her to see me smiling...yes smile one for yourself Kel and for Fizah and also ur other friends. If my smile can make her happy and automatically draw a smile onto her face...i'm more than happy to do tat...though deep down inside i'm kinda depress...but to make the people around me happy...i must be positive..! U can do it kel...lets hope for no more emotional breakdowns...i have bout enough....Go kel Go...!
you can do it!
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12:07 PM
12:07 PM
Today...urm...i slip and fell
today...okey...i disappointed Fizah again...i say something wrong, no wonder i slept and fell on my ass...i deserve it. Wah...i'm a bad bad friend...why ah!...i guess i'm just a nuisance!
Fizah and i...more than friends...
to me, fizah is the one who replace jessie...my ex who gave me 2yrs of hell getting over her...fizah make me so comfortable even after we were no longer together...she's the jewel of my eye...no one and i mean no one can replace her...she gave me precious memories in tat1 wk...she's the one tat can perform miracles...my heart use to be so brittle...when jessie left...tat was tat...i was in a state of depression..however i try to get over her...it just dun work...
Jessie gave me hell...when i'm all alone...i was left to thi nk bout the past relationship with her...it was hell...i was so depressed...i cried in my room often...its so scary to be alone...tats why i treasure friendship...because at least we got each other...and friends will nvr leave u alone...they share gd times and bad times...go through thick and thin together...one thing bout jessie is tat she distant herself away from me...its an unfamiliar sight...its so cruel...it makes me feel scared to be alone...i fear loneliness...it took me 2yrs to get over her...it was when she left for the states tat i really gotten over her...it was only when i entered Nafa that i know Nani..she was a cool gal...nice to confine my problems with her...but she also got problems of her own...its only up to certain extend tat i can help but in the end she needa hel herself and so far she's doing fine...then there came...FIZAH...shes the one tat really capture my heart...i got into a realationship with her and it was sonice...we're both comfortable with each other...and we practically can't be seperated...though its only a 1wk relationship...we keep a strong bond...even now as a friend.
To me now...fizah and me are more than friends...we share problems, we make fun of each other...we cry together...we have fun together and most of all we love each other...though its hard for u guys to understand but the bond can't be broken...for me...i duno wat will happen to me if i lose her...i dun wanna lose her...friendship last forever and so will our love...
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8:25 AM
8:25 AM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
The few few things kel fear the most!
-Being lonely
-friends who's character change
-being cheated by love ones
-friends turning back on him
-not being able to love
-being single
-the unknown
-losing friends
-betrayal
-losing love ones
-losing my bestie Fizah(if i lose her, i rather die)
so far i have not thought of more yet...well the lesser the better...i treausre friendship alot and i think only a few knows...once friendship is loss, i know tat many will see me in a emotional breakdown...my feelings are for real and so far only my bestie and my most trusted friend know tat, she gone through so much with me and she know how much friendship means to me. so guys pls dun do the above to me...its hurts u know! and Fizah...the love is still therei'll be watching over u every now and then...like a guardian angel, wishing for ur safety and happinese...any problems must confine me ok...dun keep it to urself...sometimes its best to let ur problems out.
Hmmm...dunno why...guess i'm bored! can't slp at all...alot of things are bothering me and i chose to ignore those problem...it actually the problem with my 1wk relationship...though i like the gd moments more than the bad moment...i know they exist and i dunno where to really let things out...i can't let fizah worry everytime and start choosing again or give her a huge headache when she already chose mus...this is really pressurising...i wonder how should i go about tackling this problems so tat i can set my mind at ease...i guess i should just throw the doubts aside...and just give her support and trust. i'm real jealous when i hear her talk to mus over the phone but i dun wanna spoil our day being last day as couple last fri. Beng able to make her smile is enough...everytime i got a problem...i sleep and the problem will just go...i just wish tat i can sleep forever so tat all my sorrow, my problems and difficulty will just go...the consequences are indeed really bad but to spent my time with her is well worth it...Dun worry guys...i wun do stupid things. for now i just wanna have a normal lifestyle...though i fear being alone but its a choice i make which can help fizah out...she is free from her problems now...no more pressure...just being carefree. But i hope tat she wun change herself totaly, it scares me if she really did...i will feel lonely if i know tat b'cause if she change then the fizah i once know will no longer exist...i hope tat wun happen...pls!
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10:18 AM
10:18 AM
I'm piss....P.I.S.S today...ah!
no posting for today guys....too piss to post...ah!...all i can say is tat my heart is aching right now....
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8:10 AM
8:10 AM
Friendship is no.1 to kel
today was a boring day...gd thing Fizah msg me and the msg tone woke me up...if not i dunno wat time i'll slp till...okie she ask me out with faiz...okie faiz...hmmm, my heart aching already. I was thinking when did he came into the scene...urm, i guess it was last fri i suppose...tat day we last day as couple mah so didn't really mean much to me, all eyes were on her. Now...aiyo...faiz...my friend somemore...jealous seh...okok..control Kel! Remember, Fizah and me are close friends and she is just being friendly...yes okok...cool down already. I have faith in Fizah, i know she and Mus will go along way so no need to worry, b'cause i know she is different from the past already. I know some of her flaws but i feel tat she is able to correct them...so this part i'm not worry at all. Aiyo, as a friend i have to worry on every aspect...yesterday nani ask me for help, she realise she changed and need my help...it only right i help her out...wat are friends for right...they're all my special friends...Nani and Fizah. i dunno wat will happen to me without them...must have faith and trust in them...i hope they realise that i exist in their hearts and when they need me i'll always be there to help...especially Fizah. Though i now lead a life of loneliness where i travel to sch and back home alone...but i know tat...whenever i'm in school they are always there. I hope people who read this posting dun b'cause u pity me then do things out of pity 4 me...i want everyone to do things out of their willing heart...noone will ever be happy if u take pity on them. Okie...now i have to go wash up and dress up to meet the other guys...time to dissolve my aching heart...will post more on today later.
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12:19 AM
12:19 AM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Things are different now...i gotta Adapt
today i woke up at bout 12plus...Fizah gave me a wake up call...thks man...u're the best friend i can ever have...if not i would continue sleeping. Msg her a few times...i wash up, ate alittle then i got online to finish up my blog. everthing is so different now...its so quiet...i kinda miss her voice...i kinda miss everything bout her...honestly. I guess later on i should just go somewhere and drown my thoughts with sch work...its so much pressure...my emotions are in a mix. Dunno wat to feel..."kel get a hold of urself...u dun want her to worry bout u too much right"...tats wats on my mind. i just felt the love is gone...or is it really gone? i think i'm gonna do things one by one...even though now i'm having an emotional breakdown...i know she's out there to console me, though not physically but i can feel her presence, her thoughts. I must be strong so tat when she sees me being this way...she will also be motivated...yes...though i lost her to him, but i've not lost her friendship...yes yes kelvin...its a close friendship...and u know tat she's a special friend to u...special in a way tat she makes u feel comfortable and loves u in some way. Fizah is special to me in someway and i'm gonna treasure her...b'cause we are strange just like Emily.
now i'm back home...1st thing i do...chat wif bestie aku...fizah! ok it didn't start out gd...oh my goodness! she liked so cold even when we msg...i know people change but not so soon...its alittle at a time...i know i change but i dunno wat...she dun wanna say also...Sob! Sob!...i didn't treat her the way i treat sharon...i give her special treatment somemore...only 4 VIP okay...ok la...then later in the conversation...she nudge me alot...ah! okay tats one part of her tat is still the same...so theres hope. then she told me tat she's busy doing homework,,,okay...this i understand...hmmm...sian ah...new life to adapt, feeling lonely...Myriel actually wanted me to accompany her to catch a movie but i could not make it...too much homework and i gotta go for EG meeting...some other time myriel...maybe this coming weekdays i suppose...thks myriel for being there to console me. As for Fizah...use this weekend to get urself comfortable...i hope mon...we're back to being close bestie...i want our friendship to last till we die...Wahahahaha! i'm pretty much ok now...though i can't get over my feelings but deep inside i'm proud of fizah being my gf for tat 1wk...alot of precious memories and i know tat many people will get real jealous...haha...all the BEST to us!
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11:33 PM
11:33 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
Happily ever adter...she's free, but my wounds only time will heal.
today, i woke upmearly in the morning and washup to prepare a brand new day...its the last day tat both fizah and me were to become a couple. Its hard to swallow...but i do my best to keep tat smile on tat face of mine so tat i may see her be happy for one last time b4 things start to make a drastic change. i took a train from admiralty to Lakeside...when i reached lakeside...its like 10mins early so i just sited one corner and waited for deary fizah...she was just late for 4-5min...hmmm...tats very impressive already b'cause she make an effort to reach as early as possible.we then took a train ride to Yio chun kang. after we reached Yio chu kang...we met up wif the other guys...saw nani and they're all waiting 4 hafiz. Fizah was all i could think of because its the last time being together and i wanna spent the whole day with her..and making her real happy. we went into the sports hall and watch the netballs final...starting was exciting but go alittle boring n the end. At 1st i thought Dawn's team won the game. then after the netball thingy...both fizah deary and me walk down to get the goody bag...only two gd stuff in it...packet of tissue and a bottle of water. then after tat...everyone wanna go to NYP to have lunch...went there, both fizah and me got pancakes to munch while looking 4 the foodcourt... they tasted real gd..then we found the food court and we proceed to have lunch...lunch was ok...maybe we're just feeling sleepy...Fizah deary was the one who need sthe slp...damn...now i also feeling sleepy...ok...i'll continue later [UNDER CONSTRUCTION]
I'm back...after we got back Nyp, both fizah and me were feeling bored, so we just go around disturbing people. it was fun...disturbing pradeep was the best he got really irritated and when i see my fazah deary having fun...tat puts a smile onto my face....just went around disturbing people and we have our share of having fun together. then later in the day...lili came to look for someone who can help out her class in the telematch thingy...my deary, she volenteered...i was out there to support her...again i see her having fun...she was so friendly to the art teaching...so proud of her. when everythings over...we went to town...just took a stroll having some deinks...and yah i went to Art friend...bought some stuff. after all is done...we went to bought some cheese balls...they were nice. But when i check out the time it was time 4 her to go...i can't bear to leave her...neither did she...in the train we hug each other all the way to lakeside...we just can't let go. She was someone i treasure, someone i love, someone who has became the best thing tat has ever appear in my life...i couldn't let go but i must...for her to be happy and free from all problems i had no choice...we just wished tat there were nothing troubling us...just the two of us...having a great time everyday...i was sad tat day but again i have to be happy...b'cause i dun want her to cry...i want her to smile and know tat watever happens...i'll be there for her...when we walked our way to her house, i try to make her happy...she was and i know we can be happy as special friends to each other too...its not easy...sometimes i just wanna listen to my heart and not let her go...but its impossible. tat day...i sent her off...we hug and kiss 4 the last time...it was a moment where i felt hard to let go...i wish time can just freeze there.but its impossible...we hug, we kiss and then tats it...she went off..giving a kick on my leg...we laugh it off...i try to mantain a happy mindset...so tat i can cover all the unhappy thoughts...but when i got home...everything came crumbling down...the i mpact was so much...fizah deary its not ur fault...u make me real happy real happy...sometimes i feel tat i have to overcome this kinda things. i wished tat nite tat if theres another opportunity to love her again...this time i will not let her go...she's too important 4 me...no one in my life have ever make me felt like this b4. shes one a kind, and i wanna treasure her wif all my heart. i hope she feels the same way too...and i know deep inside her she wants it too...some people might say its just a 1wk relationship so get over it but to us 1wk is a moment to be remembered...because this one seems to be a lifetime for the both of us...i guess u have to be in my shoes to know how both of us felt...i will always love u fizah...Promise!
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12:06 PM
12:06 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Love lost...but she's free and i'm happy for her!
Today its again another day of tears and happiness, after my deary finished mass lecture...we went out...hand in hand...in the we hug...she felt sad, because we gonna be seperated from each other sooner or later. i knew it but i cannot bear to do it...tats being selfish of me...i know. together we took a stroll within parco...she was sick so we sort of bought some food and sat along a flight of steps to eat. we spent some time tigether...mingling and stuff like tat...then it was bout 5.30pm...my dear says she wanna go home to rest...so i sent her home...from bugis to boon lay...dunno why but it was a fast trip...we took a stroll within jurong point...she was looking at some stuff and i just accompany her. but then i know wats up on her my mind...she's so troubled...naturally i know wats on her mind...i know she's trying to cover the facts so tat it'll be a happy day for us but i keep pursuing it...so she got angry...it took me quite long to console her...i have to bear with her anger from boonlay to lake side and t somewhere near her block...1st time i see her being angry...i just can't bear to see her like this...i always wish to see everyone happy around me...this makes me happy. we sat down somewhere...even though she say alot of nasty stuff but i did not mind b'cause i feel i can't leave her behind...she worreis me and i know she cannot think alone...i told her so many things bout how i feel bout the situation we're in...practicallt i just wanna tell her to be independent...being able to stand up for herself, do things for herself and love herself...she's not doing that and it worries me...i want my dear to be strong so when i'm no longer around her she will be able to stand up for herself...somehow it took quite long to convince her but i got the patience...soon it was bout 7plus...i sent her home...along the way...she got tears in her eys...i hug her afew times to make her feel better...i know she could do it...after sending her home...i went home. when i'm home i went online an so did she...we talk anatalk...again i console her...i know tat she's gonna cry...she loves me so much...all i could do is to console her...sometimes i dunno wat this means. i know she dun wanna leave me...but its for the better...she can't bear to leave everything behind...but i know she can, through time. and for me even though its love lost and i felt sad...i know i got everyone who cares and her...my deary of course...she is so special to me! i'll nvr forget her...she is someone specail and will forever lives in my memories...i will always love her, watch over her and always be there to lend a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.today its all sad endding but behind the sad ending i know tat my deary has become a better someone...
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8:16 AM
8:16 AM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
I dunno wats right and wats wrong...?
today i got up late but took my own sweet time to prepare for sch...took some pics of me but i belief tat they're gd enough...waste my printer ink only...then i go sch after my mum return from her grocery shopping...i think got this influence of being from her...dunno leh...been wif her 4 sometime and it sort of affect me...my heart was feeling real heavy and my nose...omg...looks so gross...i mean tat spot where i peeled...eew! i thought tat i'll be ok but on my way to sch i keep having the image of her on my mine...its hard to forget. i hope time can tell me where both of us stand. Got the mass lecture room...was 15mins late...woops! haha, but nani was later than me...cannot belief she still have tat habit...haiz. saw hafiz doing he's pod work in mass lecture...i sat beside him and paid attention to the lecture...i forgot to bring my noetbook again...i'm so absent minded actually i also forgot to bring the perspective set for hasyim too...tats another minus point for me. anyway after the lecture ended...we all went ahead to the coffee shop, i was actually not in the mood to eat or drink but just called for a milo ice...i wonder where has all my appetite gone...yesterday i also din have dinner...no mood sia..too sad to eat. one day i'm gonna starve to death if this continues...i gotta eat i told myself...but that will be later. wanting to leave the coffee shop when it rains...real heavy...ah! how am i gonna go to the library to do my sch work? waited like close to an hr before the rain subside. went to the library but meeting fizah was inevitable...i have to see her, i told myself. then met her...dunno wat to do so i just do try act normal...dun wanna disappoint her. but she see through me...i'm not feeling uncomfortable with her, just sad yet happy. i wanna ask her to meet outside the library and hug her but couldn't plug up the courage...i guess later on i'll do it...she was really kind...lent me her stuff for me to do my work but i was feeling kinda lazy...so didn't get down to work...sorry dear. i think this is how i end up blogging in the afternoon...
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11:56 PM
11:56 PM
This is so unfair but its only fair tat she stays Problem-free
Today, before figure drawing lesson...Fizah wanted to meet up with...i know tat she miss me, because everytime she meet up with me..she will have a smile on her face...and tats makes me real happy. after i sent her to class...i ran back to figure dawing lessons. in the middle of the lesson...she msg me and i quickly left class for her...she needs me and i ought to be there...i ran to wing A to look for her...we hug and she told me tat she's so confuse. Before we ever became wat we are...fiza encountered prob from her ex and between the two of us she dunno who to pick...i came into her life after she broke up wih him...which is long enough...ok....i consoled her and told her tat everything is gonna be alright. she was convince and she went back to class. i ran back to figure drawing class again and get my work over wif. after figure drawing...i make my way to find her...met up with her, we make our way to the library. We found ourselve a sit and sat there...i went ahead and do my work while she chatted with her friend and wait for her ex to make his way to sch. shewas so proud of me...telling her friend tat i'm her bf...it feels great. then the moment came...her ex arrived in sch...she make her way down...moments later...she came back...i know she was crying so she quickly make her way to the toilet...i follow up...being worried tat she will brakdown....after she exit from the toilet, i gave her a hug...she cried so hard. i felt her feelings it was so so so saddening. Console her again and again...and soon after...i was able to make her smile and laugh again. After tat we return to the library, after awhile...she felt confuse again...this time she felt for her ex...and theres nothing i could do...thinking bout all the problems she has to handle...it hurts me to just pull her down...i also became part of her proble...the only way is to let her go...i told her tat...and we agreed on it...it was ok at 1st but deep inside i just dun wanna let go and i know tat she feels it too...behind the smile of hers laid a girl crying because theres nothing tat can be done...to me it felt like my heart was stab by a knife...Why...Why does it have to be today! but, we just try not to think bout it...we went to eat at pasta mania...t was feeling...but can't finish it...it makes both pur tummy uneasy. After eating we spent ime together...i was feeling troubled...my heart was heavy but i know tat i can't do anything...neither does she. She did her best to cheer me up...eventually i did...for her. so we just spent time together...hand in hand...each time we feel tat things is not gonna be alright...we held each others hand tight or give each other a hug...it make us feel better. Time past real fast, its bout time she went home, and i sent her on her way home....in the tarin...we didn't let go of each other...its so hard...we dun wanna. eventually when the train reached jurng east...we held each other's hand even tighter...i was asking myself...why does it have to come to this...i dun wanna let go...neither does she. then lakeside...we stop and walk our way to her blk...our legs were walking the same pace...we didn't let go...on our way we thought bout how we met each other in the 1st place...this makes my heart and hers even heavy. Halfway there...i gave her a hug and we both started to cry...it felt terrible...from tmr onwards we're no longer wat we r and it hurts real bad...real real bad. i cry so badly and so did she...we held each other tightly...i just can't bear to leave her...she's the one for me and i know it but yet this had to come between us...no no no...i dun want it...i dun want any part of it...tears were everywhere...emotions were running wild...i can't bear to leave her. then later..we held each others hand and we walk but i'm the one feeling bad...because i have to let her go...i know she dun wanna but she dun have a choice either...then i cried again...and this time i just felt so so so bad...sorry dear i disappoint u...but i dunno wat appropriate action to do...after all of this...i sent her off and i went back alone...along my way...i just wanna cry my way home....i felt terrible and theres nothing i can do...i miss her even more and tat hurts...eventually i reached home controling my emotions...but even now when i'm blogging..i cannot control my emotions...every word contains part of wat i feel and it makes me wanna cry even more when i think of the mess i put her into...shhh!
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6:02 AM
6:02 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
The world revolves around the two of us
If deary didn't tell me, i didn't even realise tat my blog has been turning more and more emo day by day...well...its alright, this blog stores part of my memories and feelings...so watever u guys is wat i experience and feel. today, went for basic drawing lessons...b4 going into class, deary and i met up and we took our own sweet time walking around, she got herslf some stuff from nafa shop and i was like haha...just accompanying her...dun mind at all...as long a si can make her happy, its more than enough...ok after tat i went 4 basic drawing class. In class i cannot really sit still....try drawing and drawing but haha...all not nice...sianz!...so i go out alot...most of the time to go see her. whenever she see's me she smile and smile...soooo sweet of her! let me see...i think i got in and out of basic drawing room for at least 10times...sometimes alone and sometimes with friends. i guess the class was kinda slacky...especially when the other guys were not around...they're all at kallang cc for soccer. Hope they trash several teams. after basic darwing...i met up with deary again...and this tijme...she gotta go for class...hmmm...ok
kinda miss her every now and then, well the only way...msg to keep in contact. after sending her to print-making class, i went to makan lunch with hardi, clement, sharu and michelle. Nasi ayam again...haha...power ar. hardi and me were like always anticipating lunch...Nasi Ayam mah...nice u know! after lunch...we went to art friend...michelle and clement went off. got some stuff from art friend and after tat the other two guys went off...so i make my way back to sch...to do basic drawing Hw...sianz...but i manage to put in 100% concentration when i 'm alone...the sketch also turn out batter then the one in basic drawing lesson...haha...around 5plus...deary msg me and i go to her class and check out her printmaking thingy...kinda cool...too bad i did not get a chance to do printmaking...i envy u so much dear. After her lesson..off we go, to jurong point...along the way...it was quite saddening...so dun wanna talk bout it...but when we reach jurong point...it was all ok...spent some time with her...we just stroll around jurong point hand in hand...haha. then around 7plus thre she goes...deary got curfew. i accompany her back home...dun mind making the trip...as long as i know she is happy...its all tat matters. she got home ssafely and i make my way back home. after i reach home...i call deary...talk talk talk...till like 10plus then i have dinner. after dinner, call her again...talk again and tyhen she got tired and i brought her to bed...she so sick when she got back home...i hope she will better after today...deary regarding tmr...i got complete faith in u...just do it. theres nothing to fear...i'll be there to watch over u always when u need me...
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9:37 AM
9:37 AM
Monday, September 19, 2005
All the best to me...and her(together forever i wish)
Today i feel so happy, spent time with deary after school, helped her out for her photography lessons...too bad my cam kinda dun like her...woops! but her lecturer help adjust the cam to assist her. after her photography lessons, we went back to the library to retrieve my bags and suff, then set off to hand in her class's evaluation form. after tat...we went ahead and eat at mac donalds...earlier in the afternoon i ate wif hardi so i can't really stomach any food anymore so i ordered a mcflurry and she got herself a mc spicy double meal. after eating, i sent her home...its all the way to lakeside but i dun mind for the one i love, the train ride was kinda short in my opinion, i just wish tat it could be alittle longer, went out the mrt station and i walked her home...along the way theres laughter and tears...sometimes, theres sensitive topic tats unavoidable but i try my best to understand...i wish i could share part of her load...we shall overcome every obstacle together. when we reached her flat it was gd bye and i know both of us can't bear to leave each other...i eventually went home...on the way, my heart yearn for her...the feeling was so strong. i wonder when u grow older and more mature, love starts to turn into serious business...how will u handle this. when i got home, i called her up...we discuss alot...its there and its obvious, we're both in love with each other...even my mum can tell tat i'm in love, Damn! She was really happy and i wish tat she will always be happy and carefree...her smile brighten up my day...i know this is knda mushy mushy but its unavoidable...this is how love works. the cupid just shoot the arror onto ur ass and thats it...wamp!...ur in love. The feelings were so real, feelings cannot be explain in words, u gotta feel it. its so warm tat it'll bring a smile onto ur face or tears onto ur eyes. To the people out there who are falling in love, treasure ur partners, dun take them for granted...once they're gone...all feeling is lost and it hurts. I wish to spent as long as i could with her...hopefully till the end of time. (haha...i can't belief i wrote all this mushy mushy stuff...but its unavoidable...i'm in love!)
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8:35 AM
8:35 AM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Being lazy on a Sunday
For today, i spent the whole day slacking, i even watched advent children for like the 4th time...woke up like 10 in the morning...check my handphone and saw that deary msg me...was pretty lazy so i just laid on my bed and reply her msg...i think i cannot even keep my eyes open when i reply her msg so it was a on and off thingy...till like 10plus...i finally dooze off again. woke up at 12plus and check me msg, ok...this time deary figure out that i doozed off again...aiyah got caught in the act. after replying her msg i went to wash up and went online...damn boring sia...msn got nobody to talk to...so sian! went to cook some noodles for myself...my mum was in johor with some of my relatives...hai...dumb luck. sat at the dining table and makan...found out that she also fell aslp, probably the time i woke up plus her hp was set at silent mode. so waited and waited till she reply then finaly...bout 2plus to3, she replied...she went online and talk and talk and talk. then she says she gtg, so we continue our chat via sms...and via phone and back to sms and then phone again...overall we spoke on the 3-4times and msg alot...wat a way to pass ur time with ur love ones...but i think its pretty well worth the time. i felt that it bonded us together...haha...can't wait 4 wed...gonna go to the zoo with her after sch. Who could have thought tat i would come up with the idea of going to e zoo. well 4 both of us, i feel tat its a time to live some precious memories behind. Let me see, when was the last time i went to the zoo, primary sch times i guess...the same goes to her. Go visit my friend ah! ahmeng...wakakakaka!
Haiz! my deary was sick today too, i think all the sunburn make her kinda feverish. i told her to take some medications and have a rest...later in the day, she got better...wat a relief...whew!
overall today was a boring day, but deary kept me company all day, i ought to thank her alot...i feel tat she's the best thing to happen in my life and i think i got god to thanks for it...can't wait for this wed...hahaha...
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10:15 AM
10:15 AM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
It was a hell of a emotional ride for us today...but it came true!
today i went o the Kallang netball association to check out nani and sharina's match, and b4 i went, i told pradeep to tag along yesterday. Actually, i just wanna check her out only...like i told her i will go and catch all the action and support her. i took a bus from douby ghaut to kallang netball association. apparently i was late but not too late to catch nani's match. when i reached, i saw everyone working hard for their matches...wanna know something...there were many girls there...woooo! but only one catches my mind...it was her, sharon was there but didn't really pay any attention at her anymore...its all eyes on her! sharon actually went ahead and say hi to me but i was kinda reluctant to even open my mouth...but being friends, i just went ahead and say hi. alright nani's match started...it was intense at 1st...both teams played well but later on during the 1st match...everything start to take sides...apparently nani's team is losing control of the match, sharon's team...honestly is really strong and nani's team is losing out alot. The whistle blew and half time...the scoreline between the two was reallt tight...but during the second half, the score was a huge difference...apparently nani's team lost. it was a gd game, everyone were having fun...nice one nani and sharina...but i see that their teammate yati is pretty much a sore loser...i was like thinking..."hello! end game, stop blaming ur teammates, its just a game so stop being a sore loser." then it was her team time to play, there i arm my camera and getting raedy to take the shots...the game was one sided...but i know she did her best and having lotsa fun...she was such a competitive player but theres one time that she trip and fell...ouch! can feel the pain she felt...she rested for a while and then continue the game...the opposing team was so aggressive..they were pushy and no one can do anything...haha! and the umpire also like blind...untrain yet wanna be official...aiyo! Doink!...the game ended quickly and everyone rested aside...i told her tat it was a gd game...she smiled! ok...honestly i think pradeep is obcessed with sharon so go pradeep go...! so pradeep and me went to the shelter and waited for the rest...tought of going to art friend to get stuff for lessons...Sha volunteer to tag along, i welcome her company and pradeep to...after a while the two left for KFC and i stayed behind 4 a while to wait 4 her. waited and waited...but aiyah long sia...so i left for KFC and left her a msg on whether she wanna tag along with us. arrived at kfc andhaha...freeflow of drinks here i come...i was damn hungry, original 2piece chicken was damn nice...freeflow drinks was even better...Wahahaha!
then she replied me msg...she said tat her bf was fetching her for lunch...ok i said...even though inside me it was like uh...! ok...it was nothing much, i told to myself...it was to make me feel better actually... there she goes! we left for taka soon after lunch, pradeep didn't tag along he left for raffles to meet his friend, so Sha and me were at taka artfriend...stufff there so limited..sian!
got half of wat i needed and we left artfriend...Sha and me then bought some stuff and we slacksomewhere and talk...wah...we sat around tat place like 2hrs plus then but 6plus we left the area and head back home...i was damn shag...reached home and bath...got online just to wait for her to go online...and jeng3...there she is...immediately spoke to her...this where all the emotional rollar costal ride started..but it all turn out alright...i was blushing like hell...my face was hot hot hot...it felt like my face was under the sun. haha...so happy sia...it was also very sudden! then she got offline...i think she was tired so she went aslp or something like tat...well now i'm alone yah i watch advent children the second time on my com...nice as ever...but bored sia..but at least i know tat she is there...haha...my angel!
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8:38 AM
8:38 AM
Friday, September 16, 2005
Haha! ok...i surrender...i know the "secret"
haha, was chatting on msn then haha...alot of thing lah...but its between the two of us.Urm... its nothing in particular, just some Chit chat. then bout 2hrs later she suddenly offline...so i call her up...haha...she almost didn't pick up her phone b'cause she don't recognised my home no....whew! then we continue to talk and talk and talk...ok beside nani and Diana, she's the other girl i feel comfortable talking to...wah all malay girls but they're all decent lah...gd girls u can say!
on the phone, we also talk 4 quite awhile...like an hr!.. i feel so comfortable either talking orchatting with he. Dunno lah...haha...but i sense somthing but dunno if its accurate or not...only time will tell i suppose...but its just a guess...take it slow...step by step and i'll get my ans....hopefully...haha! (OMG...this pic...haha! its like funny...oh shit i'm gonna appear on seventeens....ah!...Nani i hope they wun post my pic...my smile not nice sia, u were there when they interview me.)
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9:03 AM
9:03 AM
Dog tired...tats how i am feeling today...!
wah today i'm damn tired...went for badmintoon heats just now, got into the 1st rd by walk through...lucky lah, our opponent didn't came. Gd Gd, then second round we took on 1L...they were damn gd, !w...which is us really wanna kneel infront of them and pray...wah...they really like god...but its gd effort i say...Anson did the best he can do and so did i...tell u guys more later...now i'm home talking to Fizah on msn..haha...miss talking to her...haha!
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7:20 AM
7:20 AM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Feeling gd as always, or am i not?
today in sch, was having mass lecture today,,,it was real interesting. its the one part bout Nafa that i enjoyed the most. after mass lecture we took our attendance and left the lecture room...ok! i saw Sharon, damn...i used to feel so comfortable speaking to her but now i keep distaning myself a way from her, dunno watsup with me but i guess its something to do with last wk durong the one wk holidays. truefully, i felt that she's the one who's avoiding me, is it tat obvious...u know i kinda respected her, since she got a bf...i kept my distance but she need not do something like tat to avoid me...hmmm...so frustrating. well the feeling for her is starting to fade...nothing to rekindle it, there was no hope...i was living in a world of despair! maybe i'm just paranoid...i always kept a positive outside but deep inside my heart was aching...i remember when leon was kinda exceeding his limits, trying to ...u know..flirt with her like intensively. i just feel like throwing a punch to him but for my friends i controlled myself. well maybe things doesn't go my way, maybe it was not meant to be, well i respect that...hmmm...all was not lost i guess, maybe theres still hope for someone else i dunno...sharon is just a fading memory of the past just like jessie...she was my 1st love and i'll love her no matter. alright i just plainly see her walked away with Sha after the lecture. the others were ready to go ahead to rex for food as plan, and the only thing in my mind is to stay positive and drown all my sorrow in happiness. After lunch, we went for pool,i was playing a losing game...i dunno...somehow i was not in the mood...it was unlike me...haha...but i just play along.after pool...Nani, sharina and i went home together...on the train i dooze off as usual...guess wat, in my dreams i kept blocking her image...haha...can't slp well in the train...WTH. Went home. i went a bath and just got online...spoke to my gal friends from myspace...haha...mum and dad went for a dinner so my sis and i were left at home, gd thing fizah got online...then we talk an talk till like pretty late...she went offline and i was left alone...it was alright...spoke to violet...she was always game 4 a chat. i wonder if i'm able to find the one true love....hmmm...i may never know, all i can do is just wait!
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11:29 AM
11:29 AM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Haha...statisfaction nvr tasted this gd b4!
today was way way cool...okay it may suck at the begining, just check it out. today, did the usual morning thingy...woke up like 6.30am. wash up, got my stuff for sch and ciao...on my way to sch, bought some famous amos cookie...hmmm...it tasted gd. Reached sch bout 8.30 exactly but i took my own time walking...anyway 5ins late wun do any harm. went in to class saw anson, pass him the racket, then think again, nah! tat racket is gonna spoil anyway so WTH. luckily yan hong pass Anson her racket. mickey came into class alittle late, from the time he came into class, blabber blabber blabber, but some of it is kinda interesting...Sorry mickey. lesson ended 45mins earlier, got to the coffeeshop for breakfast...haha...ate prata adn drank milo pank as usual, after tat, i headed for figure drawing, went in saw Ching kang, haha...Ching Kang. okay attended his lesson...figure drawing is always tat fun, the worst part of it was , i have to be the model...my wrsit were cramp and so re my palm....damn...! after figure drawing...tats all...sch ended. thought today there will be badminton heats, just a i predicted, we got trick...its on fri...ah!...Anson asked me to go for fun practice session but i felt kinda llazy so i went into the library...place my bag at, fizah(haha, gd friend of mine)'s table...then ciao wif budi for lunch. i ate chicken chop, it was satisfying...haha! got back to library after lunch..ahaha! fizah rsh out, she was in a hurry to settle something personal...ok, shall not interfere. went to library, book the discussion room and basically all of us went in to slack. illmi got a dvd and we gathered to watch...the movie was kinda hilarious. it was an al pacino movie. stupid show...but in the middle i sort of fell aslp...wat a waste! got up at the exciting part of the movie...haha..can't slp no more...30mins later, the librian intruded and we were told to leave b'caise its bout time the to floor closed..everyone left the library and went home...slept in the train as usual on my way home, i was dog tired....after tat took a bath and dinner and got online...alright, this is the best part! Final Fantasy 7 advent child is finally downloaded...Yeepee!...i watched it throughout the nite, fantastic graphics and animation...storyline was kinda comlex but it was gd...i give 4/5 stars if i were a movie critic. after tat, chatted with fizah, she sounded better ,NO, fantastic. haha...finally i cheered her up, i feel so gd...we crap all nite...and yea at bout 1am she felt sleepy and slept..now i'm all alone blogging...its alright! at least i have my part of adventure today....so so so cool!
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10:31 AM
10:31 AM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Aiyo! another boring day
today's another boring day..woke up as usual, do all the stupid morning thingy, then head for sch. haha...i remember tat today changwei lesson...damn he penalise my marks for daily work...this i will always remember. okay, i sort of got out of home 1/2 an hr earlier then usual just to recieve fizah's special gift, got to sch at bout 11am exactly and ah...look for some pictorial bk...just do some browsing basically. yah...return a overdue bk...damn, the fine was $1.70...tat sure taught me a lesson of returning borrrowed bks on time. after paying, saw fizah and gang, there she come with my gift and her probs...not gonna say...some people k-po especially michelle...i noe u reading my blog! after tat...clement came and kaka ciaociao...michelle must discpline clement...he ur darling....! then head off to basci drawing...took some pic for homework...slck, draw, practice...slack. i cannot belief tat even in the middle of our lesson tat most of us can head for the coffeshop for breakfast...Woah!...then head back to class...same thingy...till like 2.30pm...got release and everybody sort of head home...clement, michelle, fiona, pradeep and me went to burgerking for lunch...woah...tat was filling...then after lunch i went ahead back to sch to slack alone...sometimes i just need my personal space...then msg fizah, she seems troubled this time...hmmm...can't help much but offer advice....then head home like 5pm...slept in the train...luckily didn't overslept like last time...got home shower, makan dinner, got online and chatted my myriel, violet and sarah...my myspace buddies...they're pretty cool tats why i always chat with them....at the same time console fizah online..wah i am the 24hr consoling machine..haha...nvrmind! then like 10plus offline a while and watch tv...back online again and like tat lor...blogging...nothing much to say now...gotta wait till tmr to find out...especially bout the badminton heats..haha...scared sia! so stay tune guys...Ciao!
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11:17 AM
11:17 AM
Monday, September 12, 2005
Blogging to kill bordom
AH!...today was so boring...the whole day pratically kill me...should have stayed at and rot...dun wann say much bout wat i do b'cause by the time i finish typing, i'll be doozing...so wat the hell.
basically thers no lesson today so its shitty...and my gd friend Nani...she alwasy looked troubled, when can i ever see a smiling face from her again, i just wish tat all her trouble can just go away and she can enjoy life as it is...feel sad for her...yet can't do a thing bout it...hai...i'm such a useless friend. Fizah, she's haha having a crush but wun mention names..haha, so no use bugging me guys...anyway just finished a phone conversation with her...haha. wat more hu...urm, basically tats bout all 4 today..sorry guys, no action and suspence...hope one day my blog can spice things up but for the time being ...haha! this is all i can do
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9:22 AM
9:22 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
I'm back from sessioning with EG
i'm back from sessioning with EG...hahaha...i went out of home late today...sham screw me on the way to bedok...WTF...well i met him at his place, then move to break at tanah merah...mahmud and dian was there. OMG...how i miss them...eew...tats so gay! Yup! went on breaking...i didn't break much thks to the sunburn i got last wed. everyone were breaking...nah actually theres mud, dian sham and me. some of us were just plain lazy b'cause its pretty late and yah we're all hungry. after sesison, mud went to camp while sham and i went on to meet up with adam and justin. went to the finest hokkien mee stall order a plateof hokkien mee and shared it with sham...oh...b4 that...justin ordered this huge watermelon desert thingy...its huge alright...but didn't have a taste of it cause too piss to eat...thinking bout wat sham told me bout ??? crew...especially Z*** and C******. nah i'm not gonna share with u guys on wat happen. yah back to hokkien mee...then a fight brike outbehind me...two lao ah lian and a lao hero were exchanging heated words...wah! wat a scene...then suddenly the lao hero smashes two beer glasses...i was lucky so are the kids...didn't hit them at all...whew! we told sham to rush through his hokkien mee and scram...can see tat at a time like this tat he's rushing he's food...hope he dun get indigestion. the lao ah lian was bleeding all over the face, i guess the beer glass particle hit some part of her face, it was unsightly. we scram after sham finished...but soon the fight was following us. Damn...my heart was pounding real hard...call the police i told justin and he did. we got out safe and head for the mrt station. But justin kinda K-po say wanna stay and watch but we call him to snap it out...not worth he's while. say after tat, i went back home and here i am blogging...hahahaha...well tats bout all, i will blog more tmr...
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10:21 AM
10:21 AM
My slippers got stolen just now
this is stupid but when i was getting out to go to sham's place...guess wat! My Reef slippers got stolen...assholes. My guess is must be Muts, how low can they be. Not to condemn them lah....but they're all really are assholes. do they have to be the lowest in society and resort to stealing...dun they have any dignity on wat they're doing. Dun they feel on wat people are feeling when they steal from people. I guess they have no feelings...tats why many malay girls got 2time and got taken advantage of...can society change. Stop disgracing ur own race, dun muts think tat the malays are being condemn enough...i have respect for malays but not muts b'cause they bring down the name of their own people. Stop it man....for ur own kind or people will look down on u...now i dun even feel like going down to sham's place...gotta wait 4 my parents to return to setle this shit. I'll update more wats happening later...
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12:39 AM
12:39 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
1st day session with EG
Today...i woke up late again. WTF...hahaha! woke up like bout 2.15pm, saw many miss calls and msg on phone. at this i started to panic and reply the msgs. i rush through everything accepting the bathing part and changing of clothes. hahahaha! the sunburn i got from my 1st class outing with my classmates was a killer...changing of clothes was so difficult. then i went makan my lunch my mum cook for me and rush to bishan. Reach Bishan at bout 3plus and saw the other guys there. Nasser was most surprise to see me there...i hope he's happy bout seeing me there. went on to practice...but can't practice much also...my back was killing me at that time...so just practice tops only. finish session bout 6plus...then went off to makan dinner at mac. yah i forgot...to mention dino. he also went to makan dinner with us. then after makan, we just hang out. the kids were having alot of fun at the playground. liang got a call from hata...but we screw him up. After tat...we all went home...this part is the turning point. victor went ahead and chill out with me near my place. we talk and talk...heard some bad stuff which i expected but WTH. I kust wanna gain back the respect people have in me...just from people within my crew. Everything else outside the crew, is none of my business...even FTC because i disappointed them. its time to start everthing afresh and contribute a thing or two within my crew, i'm cutting away outside influence and just concentrate on my crew and studies. its the best i have to offer...well now i'm back home blogging. Wat else do i have to say...urm not at the moment maybe later...!
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10:28 AM
10:28 AM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
A day in Sentosa
yesterday i spent a great time in sentosa with some of my classmates. sad to say, it'll be better that if the whole were to turn up it'll be even better but neverthless everyone had a great time...everyone met at haboufront at bout 10. i met up with filmi and budi at admiralty, it was a coincedence tat i met them at the platform at admiralty mrt. Then we set off to meet up with pradeep at khatib...(wait guys..! this section is gonna be long so if u guys have the patience...hahahaha! i salute u)after meeting up with pradeep, we set off to habour front. at this moment...hahahaha...guess wat. "GASTRIC PAIN"...didn't take breakfast... thats why!...hahahaha...when we reached habour front mrt...hahahah...zoom...there i go...into the gents. it was heaven. i shall not go in dept into this....its gross...okay then we wait up for everyone then set off...took a bus to sentosa, reached sentosa but we have to look out for the others...we walk and walk and walk to look for "HARRY" and the others...my legs were killing me...we walk tthrough out palawan beach to look for the other guys. This part shock me the most...Anson told us tat we have to walk to Siloso beach ...AH!
"WTH" walk to siloso...no can do...lucky for us we took the tram...safe at last! Found harry and the others and everyone start striping into their beach wear...alright...we played a game of beach soccer. its not nice at all...we're playing a losing game...the sand are like needles pricking onto my legz...hahahaha...can't take it! Gd thing the game end quickly.
At this moment...everyone starts to wonder if Nani is gonna come...but i know tat she can't make it due to some reason. i understand the situation she's in and she need time of for everything. It was bout 12plus then and ground was freaking hot...woooo! Got myself into the sea and it was damn cooling...hahahaha... !
Okay guys..i'll continue later..pretty lazy to blog right now
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
StlaxatlveZ/kel First Entry
Wow...this is my 1st time doing this s***. HAHA! never expect myself to be so serious in this, well i read jarel's blog just now...now i know wat they're up to. Hmmm, now is my time to put training into serious consideration, joining back into EG is my 1st decision i made since this yr.
I hope during my time training in my crew that i will be able to contribute something to my crew and myself. Anyway its already my term break so its a gd time to enjoy and train, no more slacking. hopefully by next yr floor skills
that i'm able to make my mark. its a crucial period and i belief theres only onechance and thats it. No more fooling around from now on...its time to get
serious both in sch and in breaking, as 4 relationship thingy...i'll let nature
takes its course.Alright now its my time to tell u guys watsup with today. Basically, todays a boring day, spent the whole day at home slacking and slacking and slacking non stop. watsup with me...hahahaha! maybe i'm just lazy, yea tats right, i'm just lazy tats all.
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