Friday, December 30, 2005

Scrap New yrs eve!



I just scrap the idea for new yrs eve dinner cause i got a disppointed turnup from my friends who can do anything at the last moment...they're all so last minute...why do they have to spoils a guy hope of reuniting everyone on a new yrs day...its like this on christmas eve and yet repeated on new yrs day...i'm indeed piss.


I can't move a single inch due to body ache but i take time out to spent time with buds like them...am i so unappreciative...nvrmind...shall not blame them...its so dumb...i decide not to organise anymore gathering...crap bout meeting out...its just all talk and no action...just eats ur werds..super piss....!


No more...today its gonna be me and mr ben and jerrys ice cream...i suppose he's my only best friend...and no one else...this is wat best friends are for...i know i sound like a sadist but i can't help it...pathetic i am...friends are so fake nowadays...trying to smile here but it seem so hard...it dun werk anymore...i wnder if i ever did sumthing wrong in life...why god have to treat me this way...


i think i'm destine to lead life alone...isolated from everyone...tats me...i guess...i dunno wat 2006 have install for me...i shall realise my resolution but i got a feelin tat its not gonna be gd...unless god can prove me wrong...go ahead and do just tat...i wanna see how u do it...

Happy new urs eve to us! kelvin, ben and jerry's, silin and esther...bout the rest i dunno...too piss to think straight! VENDING MY ANGER ON THE BLOG NVR FELT SO GD B$!






Oh its the infamous toilet take ad...for better teeth try detol and it goes well the super effective toilet brush...the sell of detol from ur teeth will intrigue u


style="color:#ffffff;">Here u go joanne...its this wat ur after...my bombastic...yea right!



New yrs of aching!


GREAT THIS NEW YR I"M CELEBRATING IT WITH A FULL BODY ACHE...GONNA BE A HALF FUN AND HALF TORTURE OUTING LATER WITH MICHI AND GANG...OH MY GOODNESS>HOW DOES IT ALL COME TO THIS...HAPPY NEW YR BUDS


anyway...new yrs eve is TODAY...great woke up early in the morning...can't slp anymore...after tat i just right infront of the tele...seating on the all comfy sofa...chatted with joanne and silin like till super early in tjhe morning...its been a long time since i conference and my 1st conference with this 2...joanne is the half lively girl and silin is the one whose always seem so energetic...NEW AGE INDEPENDENt u can say...always in command...ARGH!!! back ache!...goodie...it hurts tons...Esther...miss chatting with ya...come back soon...!


Damn we talk loads of crap...now i noe what they like to talk bout...anything tat pops n the mind we just shoot...hah...still remember bout the toothbrush joke....oh goodness...how has it all come to this...i got no idea but it was hella funny...too bad only silin and me laugh it of...most of my buds just stare at me...GREATNESS!


In a few hrs time gotta godress up and go to studio and check things out b4 dinner...jeah...dinner is sure gonna be fun...hell yea...


Happy new yr to all...i shall post toothbrush ad pic in hounor of silin and cute guy pic tat pic i put on my dp tat joanne says tat i look better...haha in honour of her too...nobody will go to such extend for the toilet ad...i'm just one exception...well it beats being uninteresting...yeap!






Bumbs and bruises...oh goodie!


Today...i gotta say tat a tiring day it was...i really push myself to the limit today and the results was sore on my tigh and bruises on the lower part of my leg...tiring i am but i am determine to be the best in this business nx yr and i ogtta do wat i do...still i heed esthers advice and rest whenever i can...a promise is a promise...if not for resting...the result of practice maybe disastrous...


yea...tmr i gonna meet michi and gang..woo...crazy fun we gonna have and boy do we have lots to catch up...camera will be brought and urm i shall be dressup and stuff...dunno wat to get to wear leh...hah...maybe a shirt and jeans...yea...dinner at sum restaurent...urm michi knoes la...i dunno noe where...


2005 is coming to an end..wat a yr it isfull of ups and downs...lotsa drama for me..but it sure spice up my life...life can't be all boring...its no gd...shake a little, twist it a little and wa la! the end result...a dramatic yr! hah!...well all is not lost as i usher into the new yr with new beginings and hope for more to come..love life, sucess stories...dramatic tragedy and all...


well lets all have a brand new start to e new yr...stay happy always...Big smiles and have a happy NEW YEAR!




Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Lets talk bout Losers today!


Today i went online bout late evening and i saw a paest tagging...wooo! my 1st pest...was thinking should i ust deal with it...yea i did...he label me a loser...haha...i did tat man...stop pouring it onmme...i'm brave enuff to call myself a loser cause knowing i'm a loser i can learn from it...u always have to learn ur mistakes from a peoples point of view...but being a loser it takes a loser to identify another and u bet i did...ITS MR PASSERBY....applaud everyone...we got a winner!


Hey PASSERBY i hope ur glad tat i let u have ur MINUTE OF FAME ON MY BLOG...Pretty wierd too cause...i happen to met the same PASSERBY on michelle blog...wat a pevert tat person was...in saying tat how pretty michelle is...she know how pretty she can be...no need for comments...! wat a dumbass.


He claim tat i fall in love every min...u sure its love...wat crap it is...its just liking not love...people like him dun understand love...nope...let me explain to ya wat is love PASSERBY...nah...i dun think i have to...GO LEARN IT URSELF LOSER! love is to sacred for me...not gonna explain it...u have to experience it to know how is it like...i guess PASSERBY just dun have anyone to love or can i say PASSERBY dun have anyone to love! AWWW! tats so sad!


anyway...enuff of making this person look ugly cause spoiling the person's image as a stranger...i dun even thin the person care anyway but alittle anger on my blog spice things up...i think it does and i think by letting him come to my blog i can show those who read my blog how nowadays people are willing to go to the extend of killinh boredom...great hobby isn't it...!


Anyway...today's adventure is practicing in sengkang and chatting with crap buds esther and silin...nothing much like viewing of others blog cause its their life not mine...accept for my buds like mich, ana, bear and waffles...kpo abit and humour at their blog abit sure make life for them alittle more colourful...and several of my buds will definitely agree with it...!




Monday, December 26, 2005


Wish upon a falling star

Today is not such a bad day after all...a nite where esther got online finally...chatted with her brought sum mix feelings...happy yet i'm feeling alittle different its not becuas eif me but its her...she's sick...she's abit different...i can feel it...sense it...i now its a little freaky but such things is easy to predict and hard to avoid...a pinch of jealousy was coming from me too...haha!


well wat to do...am i falling too deep into the hole..i should hold back my feelings...dun like it go so far...i noe i'm just letting things take its natural process but feelings...is it my altering it or is it the a development...i dunno...confuse but i dunno...tats how confuse i am now...


i'm trying to respect her decision...nothing much then going into a relationship...doing my very best to not fall for her too much...control is the werd...trying my best not to think too much bout her too...worrying is not a prob anymore cause i have absolute faith in her...now its just me and my feelings...me and u...


i'll let things tales it natural course...hopefully things will turn for the better...i sure hope for it...very much...i pray for those close to me for a gd yr ahead and it includes esther...always stay happy...! i wish i wun freak people out for expressing myself cause its the way i do thngs...i just want people to adapt the way i do things...and i dunno if she can handle it...i'm trying to adapt to her way too...i hope i'm doing fine...


wats install for the nx few days is again wthout her...she's at the chalet...shall tolerate...i can do it...dun think too much and everything will be ok! YES!




Sunday, December 25, 2005

One lonely boxing day!


Its one lonely boxing i'm having this wk...suppose to watch Narnia with Esther today but it did not turn up well...she was not able to make it as she got her reasons...disappointed as i am i can't blame her...money dun just drop from the sky ya know...i actually wanna offer to give her a treat but sumhow its not apropriate for a 1st outing dun u think.


Hmmm...i think she might also reject the offer and wait she's loaded...hmmm...well according to my best bud vic he says its a gd sign...she 's not a pampered kid indeed...she think of others too. But again...i've not been out for quite sum time...may it be a date or sumthing like tat, its been a while...i dun often think highly of myself...when a girl say yes...nobody noes how happy i am...i'm a very simple guy with simple demands...satisfying me is as easy as buying me a ice cream...I"M SERIOUS.


yesterday i chatted with one crap buddy onle only...Esther again is not online...waiting and waiting...when will it be...can't msg cause she have to watch her bill can't call because of her bill...can't chat cause her net having prob...hmmm i really put alot of trust in her...theres no doubt i my mind bout her...Nope! i just detest betrayal...lies...its just take one bad bad experience to bring me to my knees due to e cause of betrayal...maybe i'm just easy to cheat...but yet i still stay strong to keep my faith! I'm no weakling...once i fall i stand up and start all over...

I'm always thinking...hmmm..why theres tons of people who ofetn say tat they're afraid to be hurt again...i did say tat once to myself but in fact its just a excuse people like to cum up with to run away from the facts...trust me its true...every werds u come up with afetr a fail relationship is just all excuses...believe me...Excuses is wat crosses their mind when coming across such stuff...

Sumtimes we have to be brave enuff to try...bring out tat courage...face ur fears...in life u only live once and tats it...i make sure tat watever i do i shall have no regrets...i live life to the fullest...i do things my way without hesitation...i have no lack of friends there and i'm happy...all i need is just a love life to spice things up...i'm not frail, weak or sum sadist...i wanna face up to the challenge...i dun care if i'm hideous looking or watever...its my confidence tat bring out the best in me...

THis are things i say to myself when i feel tat i can't seem to accomplish sumthing...it makes me stronger and wiser...I shall do the same thing nx yr...i suppose my new yr resolution is

-Be the best in watever i do

-not to worry too much

-be family orientated

-pick up new interest

-avoid drinking

-avoid clubbing

-stay confident always

-trying out volunteering services

-ETC(i've yet to come up with the others)

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Blur JollyOldKelly


OH! its Chrismmukkah...!

yes today is Chrismmukkah...got that from the Oc...the all famous name of christmas...nothing much hapen today...yet Christmas eve is indeed a nite for friends...in good times and bad times...its a nite where friends get together and celebrate...there came 3of us...vic, hakim and me...hah...bloody fuchun assholes...!


but yesterday there i was...practicing as usual...quite pathetic i know...no love one beside me but i'm use to it...its nothng out of the ordinary...i still got my friends..the other two ass...hah...talking bout crap while practicing indded i'm not alone...hmmm practicing helps me forget things...forget bout the feelings for sumone tat wanna gush out..tats why i like to pracrtice and practice...its a gd thing..i gain sumthing from it.

Dj Slicky



Spent christmas online...poor me poor me...ah...but i'm not alone...silin was online too...tat girl..hmmm crack me up...was talking bout tp open house...and how are we gonna meet for her ice cream treat...but yea...gd thing in between my performance and her touring schedule tat we can have like 3hrs off then after tat i have to rush back to do our final preparation.


Theres sumone i want to ask to go

check out performance out and its esther...hmmm...let her have a 1st hand viw on wat its like..i noe she will indeed have a wonderful time checking it out...definitely...8 people performing...10mins of showcasing...doing it the battle of the year way...hah..we will do our best to impress...Tp here we come...21st jan 2006...
Cock Nightkrawler






Friday, December 23, 2005

Oh jolly old santa...JollyOldKelly want a gift from u!



Let it snow...let it snow...let it snow!


Woooo...todays Christmas eve...1st thing i got online...Blog blog blog....wonder why can't singpore be snowing...damn...i sure envy jessi. She's in portland studying and its god damn snowing there...omg u can just look at the snow flakes there all day long...she so god damn lucky...i wish i can have such a christmas...where u can really feel the christmas spirit...

(Jessi)this girl she's so lucky...OMG

I'm gonna demand lunch treat from her once she got home from singapore...knock knock knock...wahahhaa...i'm so evil...but indeed she owe me one...cause i didn't went for her dinner treat b4 she left for portland....nah...i wun be so bad...yea anyway she's my ex- gf la...long story...but now we're still good friends...courtesy of her sending this pic of her over...Thks you Jessi!

hmmm...dunno wat i plan for today..christmas dinner will be having it at home but...haha...i dun think i can make it today for it...gonna ask mum to leave sum leftovers cause i'll be heading out soon...hmmm...few more days and its gonna be new yr...2more day and i dunno if i'm gonna go catch movie wif Esther...yesterday i asked her again and she sudden;y says she dunno if she can make it already...well kinda undersatnd this cause i can't possibly ask her to put me a sher priority...she's so friend orientated and i couldn't bear to see her being aprt from her friends.

ok i know tats dumb but i'm not self centered lor...i tend to think for others than myself which makes me lose out alot but i dun really care...though alittle disappointed but urm...i think i'll be better soon...i think she should just go enjoy herself with her friends...its where she's gonna having fun...*smiles*

hmmm...damn...i'm gona take a crap..that foul gas...oh gosh...coming from me actually...haha...okok...tummy ache already...seeya guys then gonna go to the loo...ah!

Thursday, December 22, 2005


Yes i admit i'm feeling like a "loser"

Well i shall talk bout my history of being a guy who worries to much...i dunno...seems like if esther didn't tell me that i worry so much i dun think i will ever realise...and it all comes where i dun have a limit to it...i mean...i'm always worrying here and there...theres never a time where i can take the back seat and relax...


Anyway relax is a bad werd to use on sumone cause u're telling the person to not do anything and just sit back...wrong move...back to where i was...i dunno wat to do...thinking of a solution now...hmmm...ok maybe i should calm down..have faith in everyone...tat means the trust factor...hmmm...yea i have to build back my trust...the more i worry the less i trust the person...ok i'll werk on tat...


Hopefully i wun have this prob anymore...in fact this post seem to be in a worry state over my worry problem...gd thing i realsie...there can nvr be too little worries but still we need them to show the people closet to us that we care...but dun overdo it...i guess i'll put it as one of my new yrs resolution...bout the others...urm i have not thought of it yet...but its coming.


Anyway...today i say its a DAMN BORING DAY. NO esther, no silin around to crap with me...the other peeps i know dun usually do wat they do...mark not around to comment on the beat i mix...i just stone in front of the com lke a dumb FOOL...feel like a loser...tats why i label myself loser today on the pic...cause i feel like one...feeling damn lousy today...tmr will definitely be a better...YEAP!


Gd nite world and my new werk today is on the gallery check it out...SEEYA!




Wednesday, December 21, 2005

look at this pair of shoes...omg so tempting to get it. tats me with short short hair..oh gosh...here u go esther...my short hair....


Wat drives me...i'm not sure but i can feel it already.


Today is not a bad day...though didn't chat with esther online but still i did msg her...so it makes no difference. Urm...i got alot of motivational force to push me on for the upcoming floorskillz...indeed its coming from everywhere...but the main one was fromurm...esther la...she really supporting me lor...i was like oh my gosh...am i listening it right...totally motivated...


Sumthings are just so amazing tat i dunno how to explain...imagine how can 1 persons werds can make a impact on u...its truely very fascinating...anyway i was at esplanade training today...jamin urm...long time nvr go...friends all busy...so i went training instead. no one from my crew can make it...those who are always motivate to tarin have sumthing on and thers sum unmotivational people in my crew too...hmmm...should drive them to train hard for this.


well i owe my crew alot...for the past mistakes i must make it up to them...so tat i can bring glory to them...its not easy...i love this passion of mine and planning to aim higher...wanna go to higher grounds...japan...end of this yr...wanna join Freestyle session japan...its a prestigious japan com organise by the one and only cros1...wat a genius he is...indeed the com is worldwide...


i gotta say that i needa improve more...but of course i can't neglect my health...can't overstrain or i will nvr be able to do wat i always love...i promise esther this and i'm gonna make sure i keep my werds...yeap...its bad to break a promise...2 more mths to prove myself...close to 3mths to impress the crowd, judges and also to bring my opponents to their knees...i've set myself this goal...so gotta werk for it...yea!


Well nx wk hopefully esther can make it for the movie...its ok if she can't make it but i hope so...hmmm...!


gd nitey world...sleep sleep...*smiles*

Ok ok...i should start doing wat is right...i'm think way too much. Should noe the difference of right and wrong or i would land myse;f in to unwanted trouble...1st thing 1st...stop assuming things...i assume so much...should take things as it comes...turn back to the blur old me...POOF!...ok!...




Monday, December 19, 2005


Blog Blog Blog...Blog till ya Die...OOOPS! NO cursing myself!


Yea...i back to blog again...todays a rather boring day...nothing much nice happen today. Stoning infront of the com loking for inspiration...No motivation to werk on new stff...just listening to my gd old songs and just vanish...vanish into oblivion...my existance at home is totaly nonsensical today...everything tats up my mind is a pile of Junk...waiting to be removed.


Anyway...the afternoons was bad enuff...moody moody very moody...No body nice to talk to...my jap friend Remy is not around...out to prctice i suppose...he's a cool dude...once from US he came down to jam with us and boy was he a inspiration...he's just lke mahmud...though on skills they're a whole lot different...


so there i was...sitting in front of the com...nothing better to do...so msg esther to see watsup...she didn't check her hp for messages at 1st...cause charging mah...ok...totally understandable...she's out i'm in...i wanna practice to occupy my time, to improve and to cast away the thought of my feelings...but no one is there to accompany me...i grief right inside of me for being like tat...


i guess i'm just a loner...since back then in times of loneliness tat i will head for the mall alone and watch a movie or maybe just window shop or shop alone...i didn't really care wat people think of me...i just do wat i do...friends were just mere importance to me...but now its so much different...i met a bunch of very nice people...make new friends...and being alone has become a fear...


soon after Esther got online...i just say to her the way i feel...its now or never...cause i can't bottom up thoughts like this...such things have no right timing...u jjust say wat u wanna say and thats it...case close...me bloody mood was cheered up by her...she werk wonders too. how fairy like...hah


thereafter...i went to clear my room...occupying myself helps me forget things...and soon after tat...went for a treat to ake myself happy...ice cream make me happy..and i did have it...bought like a small tub of ben and jerrys cookie dough...ate it right below my block...home is starting to stink...i need sum space...Boy was it gd and it did cheer me up alittle...but all the effort have to go to esther...funny...and i was wondering why her.


hmmm...nothing much happen at night...just chat chat chat...crap crap crap...till sumone went to bed....hmm...the day was not bed thanks to ben and jerry and esther...gonna label them heros...hah!


Gd Nite world...SLP like U nvr SLP B4!




Sunday, December 18, 2005

I'm motivated even more now...!


I woke up early in the morning to find myself running into the toilet to take a crap...oh gosh...wat a terrible start to the morning...after tat doing the usual...washing up and stuff and ate breakfast...got on the com and start stoning till come upon this clip...bgirl tania...omg crazy crazy...now i got even more motivated to be the best in this business...


Now i'm think...who wanna practice with me tmr...i'm too motivated to improve...to a new height i go...to see a girl do such dope shit and me still not at that level really kinda pisses me off...i needa be at a higher level...needa pump in more guts in me...but i gotta take care of myself at the same tome...if not esther gonna nag at me...dun want to worry...


i got too much to prepare for...Tp open house and alot of stuff...needa cope with alot things...preshow is in 2wks time...but we got out tag already so no worries...so wats left is to keep my move constant...tats most important...yea...No screw ups...can't afford such mistakes...cause io have not much time left...ITS always bout time time time...on a average training i need bout 6hrs...3hrs to warm up and 3hrs to practice. tats long i noe but i needa it alot...


Planning to train tmr...dun care already...i needa improve alot...trying out new stuff and tarining back old stuff...i hunger for more now...my patience is running short...i wanna accomplish so much more now...i think this is wat tat keeps me motivated and is the somthing tat spured me to werk hard...
Okay...tmr i shall practice then...yes yes yes i will...











T hings i do when i get really really bored


SIgh!...Sun again and my kaki is not around...haiz!


Guess wat...today...is sun and i'm bored...stoopid sun have to spoil my mood...anyway...dunno wat to write bout...yea! I got two new werk in my gallery...Hydist werk base on Hyde from l'arc enciel. Spent almost the hole day werking on it...too bad Esther is not around to withness it...


dunno wat to blog about...just too bored and i am not having any inspiration...hmmm...tats for bloggin la...lets talk bout my experiences with esther than...hmmm...1st seen her during Orientation day..find her pretty tats all...then follow up often seen her in sch....especially during my figure drawing lesson where her class is right opposite mine...


Not much of a attraction then...just thoght that she just one of the few pretty girls in sch who noes how to carry themselves well...usually the more u look at a girl the more u feel the attraction rght...yea...tats how i feel...hmmm...kinda bad though..damn...wonder why i can't ignore this kinda thing...


Ok...i have to say tat i'm having a crush on her...but i'm not doing anything bout it then...until now...or last mth when i was browsing through Hits friendster ad i saw her...hmmm...just tried my luck to see if i can have a chance to know her...well...she added me and i initiated to msg her...cool...it all went well.


Came dec when everyone got their results and she msg me through friendster...was pretty surprise to see tat...yea she was indeed very friendly...more than wat i expected...and i gladly chatted with her..but i felt bad cause the 1st few times she intiated to talk to me...feel so so so bad.


its been a wk already and we're crapping...i dunno why...but we're progressing in a way tat...we're allowing each other to know more more bout ourselves...hmmm...indeed its a gd progress. And i manage to get her out nx wk but not this wk...she can't make it...which again is quite shocking. i guess i'm just lucky...


still i have not known much bout her...mostly is tat i've only seen her gd side and not her bad side but i know she's very close this tween friends of hers...hmmm...i'm now too deep in thought...figuring out why all this is going so smoothly...i guess she's thinking bout it too...its very unatural...well just take a step at a time and soon i shall find out...hopefully!

Sumthimes feelings are hard to express no matter how straight forward u are...and i feeling this kinda shit...hmmm...My bad...! I wish i can just tell her i have a crush on her...hmmm why so hard...why?




Saturday, December 17, 2005

Tats Hyde...1 of my fav vocalist...and his release album call Hyde countdown



SATS are the best time to catch up wif friends

Saturday has come and i woke up like pretty early..10am...hmmm well it makes me kinda fresh...nobodies home. I went to wash up and took breakfast...hmmm...then after tat...went online and there she is Esther...hmmm...tak for awhile then she left and i left my com on to werk on other stuff...LIKE...watching the TeeBee...haha!

slack at home till like 3plus then went to catch up with sum old friends and have lunch nearby my place...talk crap and stuff...haha...old times are nice to remember...after tat went to the do my usual stuff and sort of end up at home bout 9plus..again home is still empty...wells...at least thers sum peace at home.

and then i got online and spoke to esther again...i dunno why i mention her name time and time again but honestly...i really enjoy talking to her... hmmm so there we are we crap all day long...talking bout Urm...too many stuff mention already...not convinient to list down or this entry will go on forever...but i sure did enjoy our conversation each time we chat...she sumone very special indeed.

Yea and today i'm feeling very l'arc en ciel...they're one of my favourite Jap band...14yrs in the music industry and still going strong...amazing isn't it...they themselves are such a huge hit in japan...much repect to them...i feel tat jap music industries are one tats very gd to invest in so if any talented guy from here wanna have a shot at fame...nows the time to do it there cause its booming...

awww...i love japan so much i wish i can make a trip there or even migrate...its indeed my wish...loving the culture there...theres so much love involve...oh how i wish it may come true...yeap...anyway enjoy the new song i uploaded...its called gd morning mr hyde.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Kissing of supermarket fish...courtesy of Esther


Boring thurs it is...SUPER LAZY TOO!0


Today was a super boring day...spent most of the time lazing in bed...woke up at 10 but switch off the alarm and went back to bed. Woke up again at 2.30...lazing around the house. went to washup and took lunch...Fried it is and i ate it all up...Mum's cooking is still no1...i still suck at it.


After then i got on the com and werk on my new piece...urmit didn't appear gd after 6hrs of non-stop werking...urm cause my face was the spoiler...yea and ana got online today and i taught her vector art but she got lost and gave up. she's gonna go lent a book on photoshop...hmmm...well trail and error on photoshop ana...its the only way to truely understand it.


after werking on it...went to have dinner...dinner was not bad...after dinner went to watch teebee...*TEEBEE*...OMG...its been a long time since i watch teebee...oh...its so nice...the feeling of sitting on the coach and enjoy myself...shows were not bad..but after like 2hrs...i got back to the com...tats where i truely belong at...haha!


talked to esther and urm she was b'daying for her friend....told me a lot of stuff...making me kinda miss my b'day...why didn't i have such fun on my b'day...freaking unfair...damn...welll she sent me a pic of it and haha...they are indeed candid pics...


hmmm...i got my day burn for doing mindless stuff...gotta quit it and make gd use of my time...better do tat....jeah!


my new werk is on the gallery so check it out...




Wednesday, December 14, 2005

This Emo kid is freaking sly so be on ur guard



BBoy Ronnie is a sick cunt...!


Today i'm having trouble slping so intend to make a nother entry to vend my frustration bout practice....i needa get more serious this time...stressing myself this days to perfect my routine...i think i gonna practice tmr...gonna find sum people who wanna practice and we crash sumwhere and jam.


seriously i ain't got much time left...by this mth i needa perfect two routines...i wanna make it to the top this yr round...Floorskillz is around the corner and i can't slack now...No way...the passion is in me...plus got lots more to come...like TP open house performance on the 21st of jan 2006.


People might say oh kel ur routine is perfecto and u're freaking style and shit but i think it ain't enuff...i hunger for more...i'm up there already among the top few bboys but i needa climb summore...i needa lve up to my expectation. i think i shall add sum additional criterial to my training...and its to challenge myself...i'll see who wanna go studio tmr and from there i shall train...


My newest routine is near completion...just a few more mini sets and its all done...amd this coming Fri i promise to film down my routine for Esther to watch she so enthu when i told wat i'm into...she like wow and wow...all crazy over it...haha...this little princess is funny...hah!


gotta train hard...i need to reach the top fast...gonna put in more effort this time round...like remy told me today...to be one of the best u have to put in a extra sumthing..and i will and it is doubling my effort and determination.






Abracadebra....AlakaZam!


Guess wat...today...i'm home for the 1st half of the day and out at the second half but i abandon Esther for hanging out...i am so guilt riden...Die die die! Have to make it up to her one day...dunno when will tat be...! Anyway...today is not a bad day...met up wif the EG guys and practice and bishan...decided to skip town for practice.


Anyway...i am again the earliest to reach studio...haiz...Guys pls have a sense of punctuality...especially if we're gonna have perfomances...Yea. I have come up with a tag for Tp open house performance...its pretty cool i dunno where that idea came from but its super nice...i believ this tag can win the trust of TPSU members...Dun worry victor we will give u a gd show on the day of the Open House.


anyway everyone got out the studio bout 7 and the others went to adam's cousin place for a swim i think...i dunno...got no clue on wats happening. But it seems like tat. And yea... i was home and i ate green bean soup tat my mum made...sitting in front of the com...saw esther...she seems like she's in all day but again she dun like shes's in front of the com...


Anyway from this moment onwards i dunno wat stuff to do...so bored...just slack all the way i suppose.




Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Silin this is for ya...Joke of the day!



Friends and Family...i'm lucky to have them.


Today i decided to blog bout this...My family and friends. well i dunno why but i'm in the mood for sucha thing...i just feel so lucky to have them. not all people lead a life having a nice family and cool friends...i have them and i think its more than enuff to keep me happy. looking at single parents kinda make me feel sorry for their kids...they lack the love from the other half. pretty saddening though.


Sumtimes i feel we all take our parents for granted...whenever they have have our best intreast at heart we defy their orders and even shout/scream at them...we dun feel a thing but to them it hurt them a million times...its so painstaking....i withness this 1st hand at home and to tell ya the truth..i got hurt to see my mum cried...over a small matter my sis cursed my mum and of course as her son i do wat i did...i defended my mum.


Many people behave like my sis...even i once am like her...shout at my mum...argue with her and stuff...without even feeling watr they're feeling...i wunder if ever a time when u people ever take a time to think bout how ur parents feel...they feel hurt yet they forgive u time and time again...for being unfillial, we got sin for life...i think bringing up a kid is so hard for them....they spent so much, they expect so much and in return all they want is ur love...ur concern and ur safety.


i'm 19 this yr and its bout time i realise the truth b4 my eyes...i wish i was just a kid again to undo wat has been done to hurt my parents. to take away their pain...ad make them realise that how lucky they r to have me as their son...i wish those who read this post will realise one thing...christmas is within a wks time...its time to give them a gift...a gift of appreciation...! to let them know tat we love them...!


And i gotta say tat i thks many of my friends to make me realise this though its not related to the topic we chatted but from it i do realise things...


anyway...my day is gd today...spoke to esther again like 3times today...morning afternoon and night...gd to hear she's safe at home...haha...i'll take back my werds on wat i say when u're at ur friends place....and take care too...ur sick!


Gd nite world...its time to go to bed!







Monday, December 12, 2005

Plans for the next semester holiday.



i"ve set my plans for the nx semester hoildays...its gonna be taking much of my time and money. i've plan to backpack to remote parts of m'sia and maybe from there to thailand...its time i see the world...planning to lodge at budget hotels. My jouney will start from malacca...from my granny's place then on ward i'll go to KL and then to cameron highlands. ok maybe m'sia will be enuff for me.


Planing to return to sg by plane from Kl...most of the time i'll be lodging at relatives place...cheap alternative. in this way i'll save quite alot...eat and slp all on them...wahahha...i'm so evil...anyway tats the way backbacking has to be...but i'm starting small. but my sunts plac ein Kl is freaking huge...she's freaking rich tats why. at the same time can pay my cousins a visit...


wahhaha...but tats like another 6mths to go. so time to save my cash...$500 should be enuff...i suppose. looking forward to it...unlike now where i'm slacking big time. i'm gonna stop werk soon and i'm so looking forward to it...3more wks till sch re-opens and i not yet plan my New yrs resolution. How how how...better think of it now so tat i can plan my way through.


1wk more till christmas even and i planning a christmas dinner for our group...8of us....hopefully all of them can turn up...i'm so looking forward to it...its been 1mth since i've seen them...planning a buffet dinner at the concorse...great food and its halah too...so hahha...my buds are gonna have a gd time feasting.


anyway..its bout time i go for dinner now...so ciao guys!




Sunday, December 11, 2005

CCB! Mud!


Its Sunday Blues...not Monday! Duh

Todays like any other sun where u get a very boring sun...woke up at bout 12 today...went to wash up and took a crap..after tat, make myself a peanutbutter jelly sandwich...3 layers of bread...hardcore! Then got online to look for pic for my new project colours of confusion. Anyway...werking on it like hardcore shit.



My sis went out as usual and mum and dad were not home from yesterday. They were at a company funtion. So thers was i...again i am alone...werking werking...in my mind there were two thoughts. Stop my werk at Thai express and relax till sch starts...and so i did.



Yea...i watched blood+ episode10 today...just d/l it...not bad la...but its getting boring by the episode...aiyah...wanna d/l the OC and watch...episode9 of season...hope its out soon. I just can't wait. Yea...today i also come upon wierd people online...as wierd as they can be...u dun really wanna know watsup...too wierd already.


And came nitefall...i've done with colour of confusion...it was superb. Then was having green bean soup as dessert...make it myself. Wow...i didn't know mine taste better than mums. Then as usual i chatted wif a few people...Esthers was super crappy...and its ort of got me to crap along...too much crap already and its making my bolts loose. Great Chat wif her...at least i dun have to feel so bored..!


Anyway...i dun really noe wat to do tmr sumbody...anybody got any ideas...?




Saturday, December 10, 2005

adam and i live from bishan studio

TESTING TESTING

today is a pretty nice day...make use of my time well...learning more stuff on photoshop...got sum werk in my gallery...can check it out if u wanna..love photoshop alot...mum went out early today to my aunts place and sis went out too...i was alone but it was ok...loneliness is part of growing up.


so there iam werking on my com for sum time...werk werk! then i bought mac Ds to eat...on the way home i accidentally spilled the coke...Drats...wate my cash on dropping it...so freaking careless of me...went home and ate the fries and burger...fries was freaking salty...geez...tat guy suck at it...damn...making my mouth all dry.


but it was already freaking late liao...haiz...damn! But ok la...took the cab...then guess wat got a jam near the amk ave 1 exit...the jam ate $5 extra...in the end i paid bout $13-$14 on cab...damn...sianz...! but for sessioning i'm willing to do anything...hah...yea mud and the others were performing too...my cam failed me...stoopid memory card.


anyway slack at bishan till like 10.30pm...sent the twins to their cab and i took the train home...so far my day was gd...well not a bad sat after all.




Friday, December 09, 2005

Look at me and jennifer love hewwit...wat a pair


My minds a mix but i'm all hype!

Weeeeeeee!....i got my specialisation result and guess wat...i got into VC advertisng/Graphic design...amazing isn't it. U guys may not feel so but i do...feeling great now! feel like going for a dive onto the pool but....! Its Raining...forget it!


Anyway most of my friends got the course they gonna specialise in so congrats everyone...its time to rejoice! 3 Cheers...hip hip hooray x3...hahahhahah! anyway i'm getting my timetable on the 29th of this mth...and yea my job...i think planing to werk like 6more werking days then stop it for a period of time...after tat i wanna practice practice practice! i wanna improve by leaps...i wanna be the best in this business...Jeah!


Talking but sem2, many of my classmates are put into different classes...i wonder wat class i'm in...hopefuuly the guys in my class will be all hype like me...feeling all happy,excited, and theres axiety, fear...tons of feelings tat i will feel once i'm in sch this cuming sem...hah...feels like orientation all over again...woooo! Anyway we're all still friends sp no matter wat class we're in it doesn't really matter...life still goes on.


can't wait for class to start and of course Floorskillz...i wanna placing on the top3...Jeah!


I forgot to mention tat i include a gallery on my blog so check it out!




Thursday, December 08, 2005

Trashy Trashy day

today was a really really bad day...i mean part of it is...urm during werk time i guess. was a runner for today and i was clearing and serving and clearing adn serving non-stop for 5hrs...felt like a zombie. my mine is like set to "Yes MASTER" mode...have to obey the customers and all their crap.

My manager got screwed by them a few times and i cans ee sum unhappy faces...sumhow in the middle of it all...i felt like just taking mystuff and walk away..living thai express in a huge mess but ain't gonna do tat cause i got lotsa gd friends there and they're all undergoing the same thing as i am so its not like i'm suffering alone...

reacher home bout 12am then got online...chatted wif peeps and joke around here and there.... and silin mention to me bout this joke about a chicken but ain't gonna share...its damn funny...u wanna noe then ask me urself. haha...i'm a selfish fool...gd thing i'm having offday today and tmr...gonna practice..dun feel like werking on sun...but i'll see bout it...for the money i have to...!

Yea...i got a wierd viwer on my blog today...dunno who he/she is...asking me to guess who...hmmm....who could she/he me...wellonly he/she knows. well whoever u are pls indentify urself cause i dun really like guessing games...can piss me off sumtimes...can't blame it...scorpios are hot tempered kinda people.

well nothing much to post for today...will blog more later on...gd nite guys...!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Friends are wat i got...Weeeee!

Got home form werk and i freaking tired from neck down but when i got online...my mi nd was hyper active...well thats how most teens will react...talk to a few friends...silin, Hakim, Cow and liyin...just crap here and there...nothing much but silin told me bout a dinner and dance thingy...sounds cool...the foo area and its in fort canning...she ask me if i can support her and go check it out...$50 per entry...hmmms ound gd...ok la...i'm werking so this kinda money is like well spent...but its around Mar...still a long time to go....just relax...!



Anyway...werk was tiring...i actually feel like quiting i dunno why...maybe i still wanna slack and practice since its the holidays...its the best time to improve...a few more mths till the big com...so can't slack at practice...must persevere...at least i gain sumthing out of it and it is satisfaction...i wanna be back at sch too...miss my sch peeps...they're a very fun bunch to hang out with, miss them tons!



haiz...tmr have to werk again...have to endure...time will pass real fast...i'm a man i can do it! YEA!








Tuesday, December 06, 2005


Finding fault wif boredom!

Yea...it as a pretty boring day today...woke up feeling grumpy, wash up and went to breakfast...mum didn't cook anything...stomach was like erh! anyway i just bear wif the hunger tll i went out later in the day. i downloaded the OC and watched..season 3 was nice...alot of cool new stories...haha...more drama...!

then bout 3plus i carry an empty stomach and headed for Bishan to session for the EG guys...bought Mac Ds at juntion 8 and went to studio to lunch...or should i say brunch. hah! after tat...i just practice and practice...then bout 6plus...the studio was intruded by a crappy old lady...she ask too much question...wanna give her a tight slap and ask her sgut her gap but ain't not gonna do tat...cause its unlike me...yeap!


Anyway...headed out to Mac Ds again...haha...saw the playground...remind of sumthing funny...last sat...we saw a couple romancing in the playground thought it was nothing but yogi went to disturb...haha...wen into Mac ds and chilled...but after chilling they were still in there but guess wat...they were fucking in there...oh my gosh...these ang mor kids...no cash to go pangkeng...must do it in public...so Ninja turtle bapak kau style...anyway ninja turtle bapak kau is a home made porn video by our singaporean local kids who wanna have a shot at porn fame...Hakim show it to me and i couldn't believe it...dumb kids!

Anyway..chilled out at MAC Ds...till 9pm and went home after tat...after tat nothing much happen but the thought of werk just suck only...haiz...sick of it!


another great but boring day...how i wish sch can begin soon...

ME

I'm a student, a bboy and a designer and a darn survivor in this mother "fcuking" world. Cocky at times, prefer to carry myself well, always confident in the air and most importantly, am learning to be mature. Whether i'm gd or bad, My closest friends knows me well enuff. If u wanna get to know me, u can just ask, nothing to be shy about. its an open society out there, if being conservative is such a bother than wats so interesting bout being human. Live life to the fullest and whether its gd or bad, life is still fruitfull because it ain't so dull. I wanna go backpacking one of this days, so whos along with me i promise i won't BITE...LOL!
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I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
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#1 Nike cortez black delux
#2 tat someone special
#3 happy life
#4 red t-shirt
#5 red t-shirt wif my designs
#6 flip flops(stolen)
#7 Havanas flip flops
#8 my god damn diploma
#9 my god damn BA
#10 get married

#11 Sony Digital SLR
#12 Black bermudas
#13 New pairs of black converse shoe
#14 the white macbeth t-shirt
#15 hardi's recommended female jeans
#16 more cheap plain t-shirts
#17 iBook (*NEW*)
#18 iPOD NANO (*NEW*)

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