Thursday, September 15, 2005
Feeling gd as always, or am i not?
today in sch, was having mass lecture today,,,it was real interesting. its the one part bout Nafa that i enjoyed the most. after mass lecture we took our attendance and left the lecture room...ok! i saw Sharon, damn...i used to feel so comfortable speaking to her but now i keep distaning myself a way from her, dunno watsup with me but i guess its something to do with last wk durong the one wk holidays. truefully, i felt that she's the one who's avoiding me, is it tat obvious...u know i kinda respected her, since she got a bf...i kept my distance but she need not do something like tat to avoid me...hmmm...so frustrating. well the feeling for her is starting to fade...nothing to rekindle it, there was no hope...i was living in a world of despair! maybe i'm just paranoid...i always kept a positive outside but deep inside my heart was aching...i remember when leon was kinda exceeding his limits, trying to ...u know..flirt with her like intensively. i just feel like throwing a punch to him but for my friends i controlled myself. well maybe things doesn't go my way, maybe it was not meant to be, well i respect that...hmmm...all was not lost i guess, maybe theres still hope for someone else i dunno...sharon is just a fading memory of the past just like jessie...she was my 1st love and i'll love her no matter. alright i just plainly see her walked away with Sha after the lecture. the others were ready to go ahead to rex for food as plan, and the only thing in my mind is to stay positive and drown all my sorrow in happiness. After lunch, we went for pool,i was playing a losing game...i dunno...somehow i was not in the mood...it was unlike me...haha...but i just play along.after pool...Nani, sharina and i went home together...on the train i dooze off as usual...guess wat, in my dreams i kept blocking her image...haha...can't slp well in the train...WTH. Went home. i went a bath and just got online...spoke to my gal friends from myspace...haha...mum and dad went for a dinner so my sis and i were left at home, gd thing fizah got online...then we talk an talk till like pretty late...she went offline and i was left alone...it was alright...spoke to violet...she was always game 4 a chat. i wonder if i'm able to find the one true love....hmmm...i may never know, all i can do is just wait!
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