StlaxatlveZ/kel [Revamp Versatility]

Sunday, September 25, 2005

The few few things kel fear the most!

-Being lonely
-friends who's character change
-being cheated by love ones
-friends turning back on him
-not being able to love
-being single
-the unknown
-losing friends
-betrayal
-losing love ones
-losing my bestie Fizah(if i lose her, i rather die)

so far i have not thought of more yet...well the lesser the better...i treausre friendship alot and i think only a few knows...once friendship is loss, i know tat many will see me in a emotional breakdown...my feelings are for real and so far only my bestie and my most trusted friend know tat, she gone through so much with me and she know how much friendship means to me. so guys pls dun do the above to me...its hurts u know! and Fizah...the love is still therei'll be watching over u every now and then...like a guardian angel, wishing for ur safety and happinese...any problems must confine me ok...dun keep it to urself...sometimes its best to let ur problems out.

Hmmm...dunno why...guess i'm bored! can't slp at all...alot of things are bothering me and i chose to ignore those problem...it actually the problem with my 1wk relationship...though i like the gd moments more than the bad moment...i know they exist and i dunno where to really let things out...i can't let fizah worry everytime and start choosing again or give her a huge headache when she already chose mus...this is really pressurising...i wonder how should i go about tackling this problems so tat i can set my mind at ease...i guess i should just throw the doubts aside...and just give her support and trust. i'm real jealous when i hear her talk to mus over the phone but i dun wanna spoil our day being last day as couple last fri. Beng able to make her smile is enough...everytime i got a problem...i sleep and the problem will just go...i just wish tat i can sleep forever so tat all my sorrow, my problems and difficulty will just go...the consequences are indeed really bad but to spent my time with her is well worth it...Dun worry guys...i wun do stupid things. for now i just wanna have a normal lifestyle...though i fear being alone but its a choice i make which can help fizah out...she is free from her problems now...no more pressure...just being carefree. But i hope tat she wun change herself totaly, it scares me if she really did...i will feel lonely if i know tat b'cause if she change then the fizah i once know will no longer exist...i hope tat wun happen...pls!

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10:18 AM

ME

I'm a student, a bboy and a designer and a darn survivor in this mother "fcuking" world. Cocky at times, prefer to carry myself well, always confident in the air and most importantly, am learning to be mature. Whether i'm gd or bad, My closest friends knows me well enuff. If u wanna get to know me, u can just ask, nothing to be shy about. its an open society out there, if being conservative is such a bother than wats so interesting bout being human. Live life to the fullest and whether its gd or bad, life is still fruitfull because it ain't so dull. I wanna go backpacking one of this days, so whos along with me i promise i won't BITE...LOL!
loves

I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
hates

HYPOCRITES
wishes

#1 Nike cortez black delux
#2 tat someone special
#3 ~~happy life~~
#4 red t-shirt
#5 red t-shirt wif my designs
#6 ~~flip flops(stolen)~~
#7 Havanas flip flops
#8 my god damn diploma
#9 my god damn BA
#10 get married

#11 Sony Digital SLR
#12 Black bermudas
#13 New pairs of black converse shoe
#14 the white macbeth t-shirt
#15 hardi's recommended female jeans
#16 more cheap plain t-shirts
#17 iBook (*NEW*)
#18 iPOD NANO (*NEW*)

people
<Michelle
Anastasia
Clement
Mudface
Fezol
Violet(sis)
Joanne
Hardi
Trena
Bear
Drey
YuFang
HuiTing

credits
brushes
blogger
Crapsite(not Recommended)

thank yous
|slayerette|
|adobe photoshop|
|foto decadent|
|jigsaw puzzle|
|imageshack|
|blogger|

extras
other stuffs

happenings
28th april to 15th may = mid-year exam
27th may = start of freedom

pasts
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April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
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