Thursday, September 22, 2005
Love lost...but she's free and i'm happy for her!
Today its again another day of tears and happiness, after my deary finished mass lecture...we went out...hand in hand...in the we hug...she felt sad, because we gonna be seperated from each other sooner or later. i knew it but i cannot bear to do it...tats being selfish of me...i know. together we took a stroll within parco...she was sick so we sort of bought some food and sat along a flight of steps to eat. we spent some time tigether...mingling and stuff like tat...then it was bout 5.30pm...my dear says she wanna go home to rest...so i sent her home...from bugis to boon lay...dunno why but it was a fast trip...we took a stroll within jurong point...she was looking at some stuff and i just accompany her. but then i know wats up on her my mind...she's so troubled...naturally i know wats on her mind...i know she's trying to cover the facts so tat it'll be a happy day for us but i keep pursuing it...so she got angry...it took me quite long to console her...i have to bear with her anger from boonlay to lake side and t somewhere near her block...1st time i see her being angry...i just can't bear to see her like this...i always wish to see everyone happy around me...this makes me happy. we sat down somewhere...even though she say alot of nasty stuff but i did not mind b'cause i feel i can't leave her behind...she worreis me and i know she cannot think alone...i told her so many things bout how i feel bout the situation we're in...practicallt i just wanna tell her to be independent...being able to stand up for herself, do things for herself and love herself...she's not doing that and it worries me...i want my dear to be strong so when i'm no longer around her she will be able to stand up for herself...somehow it took quite long to convince her but i got the patience...soon it was bout 7plus...i sent her home...along the way...she got tears in her eys...i hug her afew times to make her feel better...i know she could do it...after sending her home...i went home. when i'm home i went online an so did she...we talk anatalk...again i console her...i know tat she's gonna cry...she loves me so much...all i could do is to console her...sometimes i dunno wat this means. i know she dun wanna leave me...but its for the better...she can't bear to leave everything behind...but i know she can, through time. and for me even though its love lost and i felt sad...i know i got everyone who cares and her...my deary of course...she is so special to me! i'll nvr forget her...she is someone specail and will forever lives in my memories...i will always love her, watch over her and always be there to lend a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.today its all sad endding but behind the sad ending i know tat my deary has become a better someone...
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