Saturday, September 24, 2005
Things are different now...i gotta Adapt
today i woke up at bout 12plus...Fizah gave me a wake up call...thks man...u're the best friend i can ever have...if not i would continue sleeping. Msg her a few times...i wash up, ate alittle then i got online to finish up my blog. everthing is so different now...its so quiet...i kinda miss her voice...i kinda miss everything bout her...honestly. I guess later on i should just go somewhere and drown my thoughts with sch work...its so much pressure...my emotions are in a mix. Dunno wat to feel..."kel get a hold of urself...u dun want her to worry bout u too much right"...tats wats on my mind. i just felt the love is gone...or is it really gone? i think i'm gonna do things one by one...even though now i'm having an emotional breakdown...i know she's out there to console me, though not physically but i can feel her presence, her thoughts. I must be strong so tat when she sees me being this way...she will also be motivated...yes...though i lost her to him, but i've not lost her friendship...yes yes kelvin...its a close friendship...and u know tat she's a special friend to u...special in a way tat she makes u feel comfortable and loves u in some way. Fizah is special to me in someway and i'm gonna treasure her...b'cause we are strange just like Emily.
now i'm back home...1st thing i do...chat wif bestie aku...fizah! ok it didn't start out gd...oh my goodness! she liked so cold even when we msg...i know people change but not so soon...its alittle at a time...i know i change but i dunno wat...she dun wanna say also...Sob! Sob!...i didn't treat her the way i treat sharon...i give her special treatment somemore...only 4 VIP okay...ok la...then later in the conversation...she nudge me alot...ah! okay tats one part of her tat is still the same...so theres hope. then she told me tat she's busy doing homework,,,okay...this i understand...hmmm...sian ah...new life to adapt, feeling lonely...Myriel actually wanted me to accompany her to catch a movie but i could not make it...too much homework and i gotta go for EG meeting...some other time myriel...maybe this coming weekdays i suppose...thks myriel for being there to console me. As for Fizah...use this weekend to get urself comfortable...i hope mon...we're back to being close bestie...i want our friendship to last till we die...Wahahahaha! i'm pretty much ok now...though i can't get over my feelings but deep inside i'm proud of fizah being my gf for tat 1wk...alot of precious memories and i know tat many people will get real jealous...haha...all the BEST to us!
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