Sunday, December 18, 2005
T hings i do when i get really really bored
SIgh!...Sun again and my kaki is not around...haiz!
Guess wat...today...is sun and i'm bored...stoopid sun have to spoil my mood...anyway...dunno wat to write bout...yea! I got two new werk in my gallery...Hydist werk base on Hyde from l'arc enciel. Spent almost the hole day werking on it...too bad Esther is not around to withness it...
dunno wat to blog about...just too bored and i am not having any inspiration...hmmm...tats for bloggin la...lets talk bout my experiences with esther than...hmmm...1st seen her during Orientation day..find her pretty tats all...then follow up often seen her in sch....especially during my figure drawing lesson where her class is right opposite mine...
Not much of a attraction then...just thoght that she just one of the few pretty girls in sch who noes how to carry themselves well...usually the more u look at a girl the more u feel the attraction rght...yea...tats how i feel...hmmm...kinda bad though..damn...wonder why i can't ignore this kinda thing...
Ok...i have to say tat i'm having a crush on her...but i'm not doing anything bout it then...until now...or last mth when i was browsing through Hits friendster ad i saw her...hmmm...just tried my luck to see if i can have a chance to know her...well...she added me and i initiated to msg her...cool...it all went well.
Came dec when everyone got their results and she msg me through friendster...was pretty surprise to see tat...yea she was indeed very friendly...more than wat i expected...and i gladly chatted with her..but i felt bad cause the 1st few times she intiated to talk to me...feel so so so bad.
its been a wk already and we're crapping...i dunno why...but we're progressing in a way tat...we're allowing each other to know more more bout ourselves...hmmm...indeed its a gd progress. And i manage to get her out nx wk but not this wk...she can't make it...which again is quite shocking. i guess i'm just lucky...
still i have not known much bout her...mostly is tat i've only seen her gd side and not her bad side but i know she's very close this tween friends of hers...hmmm...i'm now too deep in thought...figuring out why all this is going so smoothly...i guess she's thinking bout it too...its very unatural...well just take a step at a time and soon i shall find out...hopefully!
Sumthimes feelings are hard to express no matter how straight forward u are...and i feeling this kinda shit...hmmm...My bad...! I wish i can just tell her i have a crush on her...hmmm why so hard...why?
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