Monday, December 26, 2005
Wish upon a falling star
Today is not such a bad day after all...a nite where esther got online finally...chatted with her brought sum mix feelings...happy yet i'm feeling alittle different its not becuas eif me but its her...she's sick...she's abit different...i can feel it...sense it...i now its a little freaky but such things is easy to predict and hard to avoid...a pinch of jealousy was coming from me too...haha!
well wat to do...am i falling too deep into the hole..i should hold back my feelings...dun like it go so far...i noe i'm just letting things take its natural process but feelings...is it my altering it or is it the a development...i dunno...confuse but i dunno...tats how confuse i am now...
i'm trying to respect her decision...nothing much then going into a relationship...doing my very best to not fall for her too much...control is the werd...trying my best not to think too much bout her too...worrying is not a prob anymore cause i have absolute faith in her...now its just me and my feelings...me and u...
i'll let things tales it natural course...hopefully things will turn for the better...i sure hope for it...very much...i pray for those close to me for a gd yr ahead and it includes esther...always stay happy...! i wish i wun freak people out for expressing myself cause its the way i do thngs...i just want people to adapt the way i do things...and i dunno if she can handle it...i'm trying to adapt to her way too...i hope i'm doing fine...
wats install for the nx few days is again wthout her...she's at the chalet...shall tolerate...i can do it...dun think too much and everything will be ok! YES!
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