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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Bad things always happens


Yea...the 1st bad thing happen today...i'm not feeling my best...totally lost my appetite...mum's nagging me but i dun even give a damn...seriously i'm not given a clear ans a clear explanation...i left here being clueless on why and what...i noe its saddening for her to make this decision but its saddening for me having to recieve this...noone wants this to happen...when she says she wants space i dunno wat she means...am i that much of a bother to her...


i never had any expectation for her...i suppose the pressure for her to love me is too much...she's just not ready...everytime when love matter strike her mind it sort of bothers her...tats the only few things that i thought might could be her problem. i guess i am a bother to her...maybe i dun deserve her cause instead of making her feel gd...i make her feel bad.


for a moment i dunno wat to do but wait...she says she wants space...i grant her space to breath to think...i've always done tat all along since the day i had my relationship with her...i told myself to be myself...the person she likes is the person she clicks...still we still click but wat happened? i dunno...


she's having her exams and her project is due soon...i once see valentine as a day to spent time with her, our very 1mth together which suddenly just disappeared right b4 my very eyes...guess its time i let matter rest till the day i get my ans...and i promise u silin tat it shall not change...i shall not live to regret this.


i'm back again...hrs b4 i was pndering alot...then finally i took a walk outside...i think of myself on why every relationship keep getting shorter right after another...why i can't seem to find the right partner...i wanted to at least make this one my final one...i gotta salvage this realtionship sumhow i told myself but wat can i do... i'm still sad...i'm feeling weak...my appetite is totally gone...have not eaten since morning...lets hope i dun faint...


well i told myself to not get werk up when i took my stroll...i'll just calm down and wait...she says she will tell me tonight...i will wait...hopefully she will tell...

*latest news*...i think i gonna leave her by herself to think...but i think its better for her to cope with her exams 1st...then come to our matter...tats just my concern now...get her stress over with 1st.


Oh yea bear...i still want the necklace and earings done...and silin no matter wat the outcome maybe...on valentines day u absolutely deserve this valentines day gift from me...time for me to hope for the best!



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ME

I'm a student, a bboy and a designer and a darn survivor in this mother "fcuking" world. Cocky at times, prefer to carry myself well, always confident in the air and most importantly, am learning to be mature. Whether i'm gd or bad, My closest friends knows me well enuff. If u wanna get to know me, u can just ask, nothing to be shy about. its an open society out there, if being conservative is such a bother than wats so interesting bout being human. Live life to the fullest and whether its gd or bad, life is still fruitfull because it ain't so dull. I wanna go backpacking one of this days, so whos along with me i promise i won't BITE...LOL!
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I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
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HYPOCRITES
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#1 Nike cortez black delux
#2 tat someone special
#3 happy life
#4 red t-shirt
#5 red t-shirt wif my designs
#6 flip flops(stolen)
#7 Havanas flip flops
#8 my god damn diploma
#9 my god damn BA
#10 get married

#11 Sony Digital SLR
#12 Black bermudas
#13 New pairs of black converse shoe
#14 the white macbeth t-shirt
#15 hardi's recommended female jeans
#16 more cheap plain t-shirts
#17 iBook (*NEW*)
#18 iPOD NANO (*NEW*)

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Anastasia
Clement
Mudface
Fezol
Violet(sis)
Joanne
Hardi
Trena
Bear
Drey
YuFang
HuiTing


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|foto decadent|
|jigsaw puzzle|
|imageshack|
|blogger|

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