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Friday, February 03, 2006

Venture into Oblivion!


haha! i ever wonder wat kind of person i am and wat kind of person others are...then i came to realsie that i am one who care for others and never for myself...however selfish i am...i still care for the people other than myself...lets say sumone was to be in danger...i think i will jump down to rescue and get crash by a car instead of seeing a friend lose his/her life.


stranger or not, close buds or just aquaintances...i think i can never care for myself. my parents use to say...u keep caring for others...when is it gonna be the time u learn to care for urself...i dunno if i ever will. in the game of love...i think i will always be in the losing end...i give in much and being too nice...got taken advantage off and in the get dump...hmmm not a nice ending for me...time wasted indeed but sumtimes people tend to be alittle overboard...yea...!


Now i'm really interested to noe who will be the 1st to notice me if i'm given a scenario that me being a victim of a car accident...well...most definitely...victor , arvind and if possible, ben whos trap in camp...trena is a possibilty...esther too...but the rest...i'm not too sure of it! care and concern is part of our human values, love is an evolution of infactuation...its wat i think as a human must have in them...


a normal human to me...noes to care...worrys at times...is always passionate...have control of their lifes...emotional when needed...have faith in self...a normal human have a balance of everything which in my eyes is wat i target for..my values are all mixed and its bout time i do alittle soul searching...


Its pretty obvious that i am putting on a mask to cover my inside...sumtimes i dunno why image matters...i think it doesn't...i care for myself...wat people think is none of my business...as long as i believe in myself then i can do the impossible...i'm not a image person...i let sumone see my true self...this is me...whether u like it or not suit urself...sumtimes personality can never be change...its unatural and why change when u are being born in this way...


hmmm...guess life is complicated but still am figuring it out...hpefull i noe the meanings of life in due time...i'm a lao gu dong and i'm not gonna change tat...its who i am...be urself! well i cut my hair today and i'm very happy with the results...its wat i want and i may keep this hairstyle for quite awhile. anyway the people whom i always tok to are not around...where are the friends when u need them...guess they dun really care...haiz...nevermind...they just dunno that to me they're my best buds...to them i maybe just a piece of crap...haha......hmmm maybe i exaggerate again...hmmm but i'm not feeling it like b4...i'm the one taking initiative yet...i dunno...guess tats wat happens when people got tons of friends...well just take it as it is...and go with the flow...Kelvin am not any special being to anyone anyway...hah!


And i still hate clubbing 101...i hate clubbers and clubs...hate hate hate hate hate!
anyway...guess i'm the only fool who believe in long friendships. love is too one of my believe...partners can be lovers as long as rwo person are willing to give it a try...i forever shall be the fool whom will always take the initiative which in the end bear no results...well lao gu dong is like tat...so can't do much...

sumone is still missing from my blog..i guess she just lost interest in this blog i suppose...wth la...anyway this blog is getting boring...so anyone suggest if i should shutdown this blog??? pls tag...and comment!...viewership have been very low...!


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ME

I'm a student, a bboy and a designer and a darn survivor in this mother "fcuking" world. Cocky at times, prefer to carry myself well, always confident in the air and most importantly, am learning to be mature. Whether i'm gd or bad, My closest friends knows me well enuff. If u wanna get to know me, u can just ask, nothing to be shy about. its an open society out there, if being conservative is such a bother than wats so interesting bout being human. Live life to the fullest and whether its gd or bad, life is still fruitfull because it ain't so dull. I wanna go backpacking one of this days, so whos along with me i promise i won't BITE...LOL!
loves

I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
hates

HYPOCRITES
wishes

#1 Nike cortez black delux
#2 tat someone special
#3 happy life
#4 red t-shirt
#5 red t-shirt wif my designs
#6 flip flops(stolen)
#7 Havanas flip flops
#8 my god damn diploma
#9 my god damn BA
#10 get married

#11 Sony Digital SLR
#12 Black bermudas
#13 New pairs of black converse shoe
#14 the white macbeth t-shirt
#15 hardi's recommended female jeans
#16 more cheap plain t-shirts
#17 iBook (*NEW*)
#18 iPOD NANO (*NEW*)

people
<Michelle
Anastasia
Clement
Mudface
Fezol
Violet(sis)
Joanne
Hardi
Trena
Bear
Drey
YuFang
HuiTing


credits
brushes
blogger
Crapsite(not Recommended)

thank yous
|slayerette|
|adobe photoshop|
|foto decadent|
|jigsaw puzzle|
|imageshack|
|blogger|

extras
other stuffs

happenings
28th april to 15th may = mid-year exam
27th may = start of freedom

pasts
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
September 2006

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